Bhaktin Marta from Spain

1 year, 8 months ago by Bhaktin Marta in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna dear Hanumat Presaka Swami, please accept my humble obeisances, jay Srila Prabhupada!

I am very happy you are coming to Spain and we can have your inspiring association, many thanks!

Please forgive me I didn’t answer your last letter... :

“Are you going to get formally initiated. It is like the 'boda'. It is a formality but not a meaningless formality.”

Reading carefully Jayarama Guru-tattva page, I am not ready now to follow strictly the commitment: I am not able yet to chant 16 rounds everyday, I am ashamed to say this. Sometimes 8 rounds, none, 2, suddenly 16, 4, amazing, boring, ecstasy, anxiety, like this.

These last months have been a great challenge in many senses. Many tests. Lot of learning. What I got from all this... I want to start taking this process seriously! No more excuses. I have too much to thank, and to love and to serve, also to surrender, to Krishna, Prabhupada, You, Jara Mara Hari das, Life. At least, I owe all you this serious chanting... And I want to get closer to spiritual world...

So from now, everyday, minimum: chanting 4 rounds, reading 4 Bhagavad Gita verses and meaning. Increasing gradually until I reach 16 rounds everyday and I get the taste for reading Prabhupada’s books. Hopefully next year I’ll be prepared to ask You for formal initiation. 

Jara Mara Hari das is helping and encouraging a lot.

Also, trying to find balance in general, learning about Dharma, about Grihastha Ashram, about Service in this life.

I’ll keep reporting the process, thank you very much for the opportunity.

Your aspirant servant, 

Bhaktin Marta

HpS - AGTSP. This letter was before we started traveling. Could not answer anything. O.K. Have you been chanting 4-rounds/day, reading? Yes/No .... Accept the reality and go ahead. The Witch will not win this fight!