Hare Krishna Gurumaharaja!
Please, accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet!!! _o/\___
HpS - ASA -- Lettuce feet. AGTSP!! Please accept our obeisances to your venerable feet.
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada!!!
Gurudeva, I write to you trying to get your saintly association.....to get spiritual inspiratión, strength, instructions, mercy!!!! from you _/\_ Please!!!
First of all, I want to tell you that I recently went to two specialists doctors in Rheumatology and after several years of having "arthritis" problems finally I get a more accurate diagnosis: "Ankylosing Spondylitis", it is a rheumatic disease, a type of arthritis in which there is long-term inflammation of the joints of the spine. It is a chronic problem and there is no cure, just control it taking medicines. Medicines are very expensive and we are processing health insurance to get them cheaper.
But, what worries me most, Gurudeva...is that this disease affects also the lungs and I already have my lungs affected, the disease has advanced because I have been for more than 12 years without a diagnosis and without taking the medicines.
Gurudeva, I do not know what will happen.
HpS - It is like the weather. We don't know what will happen. You may discover some alternative medicine that works. It may just go away. Modern medicine may discover a cure. These are several of the bad possibilities. The good possibility is that your body may rot and become a completely repulsive mass and you die. Then you will be detached from any attraction to any new material body and you will come out in your eternal body!
In general, we don't know what will happen. So we deal with life from an immediate, practical perspective and do what service we can, now.
Lately, I have been thinking about death and understanding more the importance of chanting Hare Krishna!!! I should be chanting all day! as much as I can! "Kirtaniyah sada harih" as you constantly instruct us.
Gurudeva, in these moments I am fearful and worried about the state of my body...I am afraid of death...
HpS - Why? you've done it thousands of times before. Just go ahead developing your Yoga and you will be more and more detached from your body and more attached to Krsna's body.
But sometimes I think that is something that is going to happen anyway.....It is just a matter of time....isn't it?
ASA - Precisely. Some die today, some die tomorrow, some are already dead.
Finally, I want to apologize, today in SB class you asked to chant the verse, and I did not do it, Gurudeva, it is because I could not hear you properly due to my internet connection, there was an interrupted sound and sometimes I can not hear the words completely. Later when I heard the recording that you shared on Twitter I heard that you asked me to chant the verse. <img alt="sad" height="23" src="https://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/sad_smile.png" title="sad" width="23" />
I like to chant the verse !!! <img alt="smiley" height="23" src="https://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.png" title="smiley" width="23" />
HpS - You do it well!
Thank you very much for all your causeless mercy upon me, Gurudeva, you are a very genuine servant of Srila Prabhupada, rescuing fallen souls from the mud of material existence! _/\_
Thank you so much and please kindly forgive my offenses!
Your sinful disciple...
ASA - Socrates took the poison rather than run away. Try to move to Krsna and the separated material body will just become a shadow. Increase your Yoga. That is the only solution. Wating for more news from you.