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 Please Dear Maharaja, Accept my most humbles obeisances!

 why is this so hard for me? getting out of Maya? Is it maybe there is not true desire in my heart to become a good devote at least? i keep questioning myself every day. the only place i feel happy its at the temple, doing service for Krishna and the devotes. as soon as i leave, Maya gets me, everything gets difficult. i keep my principles up, not eating any meat or eggs, not gambling, not illicit sex, I'm back into chanting my rounds (the ones i still own to Krishna) but still sometimes its harder to keep track on my chanting, i guess that's the most difficult part. I read about Narada muni and he was a planet traveler, so, it may be recommended for me to start traveling to get the association with another devotes from around South America? attending to other temples? keep track of my chanting and finding more confidence in myself to keep me chanting in a disciplined way? its been 7 months since i asked for you shelter, but i guess since the big fail of the past two months i may start over again. I'll deeply appreciate if it is so Maharaja. Say hi to monkey, pigg, and scientist and tell them i need their advice.  Vrajendra Kumar Das and Japa Nama Rama Das are here in Panama so i might take them as advisors to help me keep track on my sadhana. try to become a little be as good as they both are. 

HpS - ASA --  We typed about three pages of answer to your letter and then it got erased..... Agan....  1) You are a neophyte pure devotee. You can only see God in your church, your Acharya, your....    just innocent of how to see him in borader aspect.   So, take instructions from Prabhuapda through his books and devotees and then you will know. Move as fast as you can. Avoid as many falldowns into pizza and salad from the zoo that you can.

Yes, you have to connect with ISKCON on a broader basis than Panama.  Maybe your will go to a different coutnry for a while.

It will happen.

Today is Ekadasi.  We can't see the screne clearly. OUr eyes have not recovered from the infection from Argentina, we have four more rounds to do, it is 5.30PM. We got a LOT of Sankirtan/work done.

At 6.15PM we have to start heading to meet with Dr. Desai for our regular walk.

Our life is like your life.  We just have been doing it for 40-years more than you. You will make faster progress than we have made.

Make a vow of how many rounds you will chant each day minumum until the next Ekadasi. It may not be 16-yet, because this you HAVE to do. Something you know you can do!!

Wonder Woman chants Japa.

Send the vow here to the Blog URGENT.