Dear Guru Maharaja:
All the glories to Sri Sri Radha Krishna
All the glories to Srila Prabhupada
All glories to you
Please accept my humble obeisances
How are you? I'm resending this letter, I don't know if it got lost in a bunch of hundred of letters
I enjoy sharing my thoughts with you, so I´m going to do it. Also I need it.
Sometimes when I travel in the train to work, I visualize in my mind Lord Vishnu in the people's hearts, then the whole train is full of him, the Lord is everywhere, He´s watching me and I watching him, we are looking at each other. Paramatma, my partner in my heart, I talk to him very often, When we go to do something new I say: We are going to an adventure! We are having fun, not always, sometimes I have bad days but when I remember that I´m never alone It gets better.
Sometime ago I wrote you about Micaela, one of my best friends, she left the body a year and a half ago, I miss her so much, I think if she took birth in a human body she could be a baby now, sometimes when I see a baby I ask myself if she is. The other day I saw an image of Lord Gauranga with tears in his eyes, I had tears in my eyes too because I was thinking on Micaela and how much I miss her, my feelings are material?
HpS - Probably 50%, no? Don't give up the feelings, purify them.
I know that lament is on tama guna, I suffer when I see someone is suffering, more than anything materially, but then I remember that all the jivas who don´t remember the Lord are suffering. In this case I should feel compassion for all in this material world. I don´t want anyone suffering, I want to be a good preacher because when they know about Sri Krsna the suffering is going to end. How can I become in a preacher?
HpS - By becoming a good "preached", student!
Yours in Srila Prabhupada´s service
Kirtida Devi Dasi
HpS - See you in a few days!!! Take books with you, then Krsna will give you a chance to give them to innocent people, devotees.