All glories to Srila Prabhupada

Hare krishna Gurudev please accept my humble obeisances to your feet. Eventually, i find a moment to write you while my children sleeping. i hope this letter finds you well dear Gurudev. 
some changes, we aren´t working with prasadam anymore, they forbiden us in the building we live, because of risks prevention with gas. So my husband is dedicated to tatoo & airbrushing´s works ...
As far as i am concerned, i go out to sankirtan some days a week.... i am reading almost all days, in english from veda base, lately i have been reading "dharma: the way of trascendence"...and the start meeting program save my life every days thank you very much for that. 

 However, i am dealing with depressive and negative feelings about my self and my life after the whole situation that happened... despite haven´t stoped chanting my rounds and take care of my children this have became more and more hard to do with this state. Nevertheless without Srila Prabhupada and your mercy, its a fact i would be so much worse.

HpS - ASA - It is very nice to hear from you!   Try reading the books by Krsna dharma Das on Vedabase.com.

Maybe Krnsa will send another kitchen. Maybe a beter situation in partner ship with other devotee family.

Don't be depressed. Your history as a devotee as we know it is really very good: Book distributor, mother, daughter, wife. The SB is FULL of falldowns. Look at your present situation. Your present challenge which has unique aspects that no one has ever faced before and get up and get to work. So many people you read this get strength from you association.

I dont want to become a ungrateful person but i can´t help feeling like this, sometimes i think i need to face my sadness and just accept it, accept this as my karma, my quota of suffering, as you told me once...we are not looking for happiness but purification...and probably this is an other oportunity for i realize that. 

HPS - Yes. Was Druapadi happy? Kunti??   Radharani???

Well, in the other hand, i have some doubts about the deities worships standar for kids, i was trying to include my older son, syam, 3 years old, and he is very very enthusiastic, actually he ask me to do it every morings, and daya (1 year 3 months old) she always point the altar saying "jaya jaya" asking me for put her close to the deities, so i dont want to ignore the enthusiasm they bring maybe form other lives, i dont know... but, a devotee showed me some excerpts from srila prabhupada´s letter that saying a mother can´t worship the deities until her children stop to use diapers and stop being breast feeding... and a child can´t help with the worship of the deities until the 10 years old!!!

HpS - ASA -- Is this from letters from Srila Prabhupada? Room conversations? I never heard it before.  It also may be the standard for installed deities in the Temple.

For this in the house then we adjust like you say to the devotees, old or young, to have facility to see and touch Krsna. Of course we need to keep things clean, but after changing diapers we can clean our hands properly etc.

I feel very confused now about it....i dont understand the reason why, and the contexct of these letters... 

this is exactly what i read:

"las madres que tengan niños pequeños no deben cocinar para las deidades o adorarlas hasta que dejen de lactar a sus niños, y hasta que el niño no use mas pañales". Carta de Srila Prabhupada, Hawai, 8 de junio, 1975

" No le des la Deidad de jaganntha a los niños pequeños porque no lo cuidaran apropiadamente y haran ofensas" Carta de Srila prabhupada, hawai, 30 de marzo 1969

" (los niños) pueden aprender a adorar a la deidad a los 10 años, no menos, antes de eso puede ayudar.Pueden aprender como hacer reverencias, como bailar, cantar, hacer guirnaldasm limpiar utensilios del arati. Esas tambien son diferentes partes de la adoracion a la deidades" Extraxto de un manual de adorazion en el hogar.

 (of course mi intention its not give to my little daughter the deities in her hands, because i understand its not a good idea)

HPS - The First letter is for the worship of the Temple Deity in Hawaii as far as I understand. The other letters are correct, but the children can do arati before ten if they can be clean and treat the house deities properly. They can watch, They can help. Prabhupada explains that even he was little he would sit by the kitchen door and watch the cooking.

As much as they can do in a clean proper fashion they can do.

so, humbly this are my questions:

- as far as i know the standar for jagannatha baladeva y subadra its not the same as the goura nitay standar, isn´t?

HPS - Jayatritha Das told us that Srila Prabhupada said that Lord Jagannatha is 80% merciful. He forgives offenses 80%. Gaura Nitai 100% except for Vaisnava aparadha etc.

- as far as i know, until the 5 years old all the reactions of my children´s offenses goes to me, so i always think."

HPS - Maybe. If they have free will and intelligence to discriminate then they have to take responsibility for the actions they do also.

i assume the responsability of any reaction but i prefer he could have that good samskara & the good habit since now instead than he never do it" its wrong thinking like that? 

- this is a standar for a temple or for a home?

- i see the oldest son of my husband, nitay, who is 10 years old, and he is not interested in krishna counsciousness at all, so i believe "now is the moment for do all that i can" ... 

but honestly iam confused about this topic...

nevertheless i´ll send you some photos of the last nityananda trayodasi.

thank you one more time for your existence and for be there always for your disciples,

your aspirant servant,

Indu-lekha devi dasi

HpS - AgtSP - Hare Krsna. Yes, first get people involved in Krsna consciousness and then add the rules and regulations.

Temple standard is higher. Keep things clean and punctual in your house and then left the children, everyone serve Krsna in a natural way. Chanting, dancing, cooking, offer Bhoga, license, flower, fan, ... ornaments, clothes.  That's a lot. Go looking for flowers with your family. INvite friends to see you dieties.