Dear Guru Maharaj,
Please accept my most humble obeisance and all glory to Srila Prabhupada and your mission in his service.
I am not at all qualified for the service that you have said. It is only your mercy that you are trying to positively engage a lost soul like me.
I am abiding to the rules and regulations but my attraction to the Holy Names is wavering. I find that my mind is more attracted to chanting when it is done in a melodious song. But when it is recited without music, it is harder for me to stay attentive. This makes me wonder if I am attracted to the holy name or just the music. I think my mind is contaminated and is still in need of a lot of purification. As you have taught, the only solution is to take shelter of the holy name and therefore I am going to start chanting again to finish my rounds after sending this letter.
Your aspiring servant,
Aja govinda dasa
HpS - When you chant with enthusiams, like lifting weights in the gymnasium, after 16-rounds you feel good! Later comes Jnana yoga. Do it everyday and you will develope so much realization of the benefits to health, moral and mental strength, that you can write books about it.
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