Hare Krishna Maharaja
AGTSP
Thank you very much for your answer, the truth is that it leaves me a lot of homework to study and begin to seek from the intelligence ways to discipline me to determine me. Put aside the emotionality and abide by the instructions.
HpS --- No!!! Don't put aside emotions! They are our means of progress. They are the wind, the senses are the sails and the Guru, Srila Pabhupada, is the captain who uses the winds to take us where he wants us to go, not where the unguided winds want to take us.
Today was a very difficult day, I cried a lot, talk to a dear mataji who advised me. Then, some children arrived with their caregivers who were taking a walk and belong to a home of abandoned children. We met them in a food for life program that we did in their residence and today they wanted to visit the temple. With Abhimanyu we were just there, since lately we are not visiting the temple on Fridays. It was beautiful, the children asked me to go to the temple and to be in class, I felt that it was Krishna taking care of what moves me every day, which is to work with children with social problems. A child repeated the verse that was mentioned in the class at the beginning, he was delighted, with his eyes glued to Srila Prabhupada, and I had glimpses of enthusiasm.Then, I asked Prasadam for the children, ice cream, they denied me because they told me that they were for sale and that the person would not do more if they gave them to me, I did not keep the negative, I went ahead for those souls that had the opportunity to meet Srila Prabhupada, hear a verse from BG.
With respect to:
"1. ISKCON as an institution.
2. ISKCON as your friends
3. ISKCON as you and Srila Prabhupada.
Can you live in all three? "If I can, but it's hard for me ... what does it teach me to start moving forward on these points? Like ISKCON as your friends?
HpS - Srila Prabhupada will be your personal, eternal, friend. Just develop that relationship. Then develop your circle of friends in service. In the end, our message is that you have free will and personal responsibilities of the same quality as God. If is frightening, but also intoxicating: I really matter!
Nothing can discourage you unless you let it.
Yes, the whole universe depends on your choices.
Thank you very much Maharaja for helping me, I will be writing more often, even more if I am not well with my spiritual life. I will name RADHE and with love I will continue to serve Srila Prabhupada, you, my Siksa guru and Maharaja Dhanvantari.
Please give me your blessings to stop falling, give me your blessings to fight with maya, I want to advance in Krishna Consciousness and preach this great movement, that this is the meaning of my life. Even so in the crisis I see that that is my goal, there I want to be, sheltered in the Lotus Feet of Krishna.
Waiting for you to be very well Your humble well-wisher, Ma. Soledad Oyarce
HpS - I get exhausted by conflicts in ISKCON. Sometimes I see that I am the source of the problem. Accept it, apologice as practical, fight your mistakes.
Won't solve all the problems every time but the progress is eternal. Step by step.