Hare Krishna Maharaja
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
All glories to Sri Sri Goura Nitay
All the glories to you

HpS - AGTSP!

Maharaja, I am Ma. Soledad de Chile, wife of Abhimanyu, do you remember me?

HpS - Yes!!

I hope your health goes well within what you can and that illuminates the souls of everyone with whom you associate. I did not write to him months ago because I'm not having a good time.

HpS - Especially you should write if you are having a bad time, no???

Materially everything is happening in the best way for me in relation to the labor and the economy, unfortunately my spiritual life is in decline. Maharaja, I am writing to you because I need your instruction, of any word you can give me to get out of this I am falling into, I will be sincere with you, as I believe it is the only way in which I can move forward. I have only talked to a Mataji, and I need to be honest and reveal my mind to those who do not judge me, as this is very painful for me.

A few months ago I began to question myself a lot about the dynamics of the devotees, until one day I woke up completely discouraged, without mood of singing my japa (I was doing very well for many months, singing with enthusiasm) until that day I did not sing, and so I take a couple of months, without chanting Hare Krishna (I'm afraid to post this here, because unfortunately Maharaja there are devotees who will read it and they will criticize me and speak ill of me,

HpS - In the material world EVERYONE is criticized!    It is compared to a cricket that makes noise and keeps us awake at night, but search and search and you can't find it (SB Canto Five, Forest of Material Enjoyment). You must learn to avoid the demoniac attachments in of the members of this Blog and take advantage of the friendly aspects. NOI-4 & 5!

...I still do not know how to fight in my mind against that) , little by little I began to lose enthusiasm for doing service, I stopped having enthusiasm for going to the temple and for being surrounded by some people. My guru instructed me not to stop going to Prabhupada's house, and I failed him, for a long time I felt that I was practicing tolerance and mental obeisances towards those whom I see harming other devotees, but I think I did bad, since it would not be as bad as it is now. I feel that I have a crisis Maharaja, I know it is Maya, I know that it is because I have not understood the instructions and teachings of the scriptures, I know that it is because I have not determined to take my spiritual life seriously, but I need a guide that can help me. to say what to do in these moments in which I feel disappointed and with pain inside of me because of what is happening to me. Sometimes I find it hard to understand how being Krishna Consciousness pure love, there are people who do so much harm to others, defacing and offending them, what position should we take to be spectators of those situations? How is it done to maintain enthusiasm? Who advises me to read about spiritual practice being grihastas? I know it will not come from heaven, I know I must have discipline, but Maharaja sometimes I feel that I can not and suffer.

Please forgive me for needing your instruction, for not being able to tell you something positive. With Abhimanyu we are coordinating Food For Life, the only service that I have in charge, and every time I execute it, I offer it to Srila Prabhupada, to you and to Maharaja Dhanvantari. The only thing that I have clear is that the realizations that I had I will never lose, all the time I was fixed I felt spiritual pleasure, I lived intensely, I felt love for the devotees that surrounded me, I still want my environment to be Conscious of Krishna, I preach in my work, wherever I go I carry Krishna in my heart, trusting firmly that only He is the controller, and I strongly ask every day for strength to understand what is happening to me and find solutions, I do not want to fall anymore Deep in the claws of the Mayan witch, I do not want to sleep in the illusion of this material world, I want to go back to Krishna.

Waiting for you to be very well Your humble well-wisher, Ma. Soledad Oyarce.

HpS - Well, again, you should have been writing to us, our someone like us, earlier. Getting free from The Evil One is not easy. Prabhupada says it is declaration of war on the material nature!   In contrast we have a very nice person to help us fight with the Black Witch!   She is the White Witch. Photo attached below.

Just call Her name, Radhe!   Hare!  Until you get connected.

We have 18,000 verses in SB and all its following books, like CC, because there are so many varieties of attachment, envy, in spiritual life. Aditi trying to kill her sister's children in the Fifth Canto. She was  very advanced devotee, but she wanted to serve Krsna, the ways SHE WANTED TO SERVE HIM and she was so angry at how her sister was serving Him, picking clothes for feast for Janmastima etc. that she wanted to eliminate her sisters children from the "Temple".

So that is a little idea.

1. ISKCON as and institution.

2. ISKCON as your friends

3. ISKCON as you and Srila Prabhupada.

Can you live in all three?

Srila Prabhupada wants you to chant Hare Krsna. You. Personally. He will hear it.

O.K. for first round of ideas?