Hare krsna gurudev 

Dandavat pranam at your lotus feet 

AGTSP 

Gurudev I would like to request you to kindly visit shillong this year during your stay in India. You had asked regarding scholars that you would like to talk with.  What type of topics would you like to discuss with them. And how should I approach them.  Currently we can have a seminar at a college for general students. A doctor of physiology is also interested to talk with you but that is not confirmed.  What themes would you like to do seminars on. And there is a university here  where they have a subject in philosophy. I will approach them in few days If you confirm regarding if or not you would like to visit. 

Regarding my sadhana. I am chanting my rounds,  mangal Aarti most days when I don't have night duty but gayatri Is not stable due to duty hours but mostly one or two sadhya I am doing. Rarely all 3.  4 regulative principles are OK.  Not very very strictly fixed but OK as of now. I am reading one sloka of Bhagavatam everyday most days. Canto1. 

But my mind and heart is very much troubled. It seems my astrology charts are very very bad shape and I am going through rahu Maha Dasha. And my moon positions is in zero degree. The astrologer I consulted said that my chart is very very bad materially and not very definite spiritually. Where do I stand I don't know. My career Is nearly down the drain. And i am not growing spiritually also. Don't really know where I am going. My friends r very successful and happy but I don't know what is going wrong. I have tried most things that I can think of.. Mangal Aarti,  chanting,  deity worship.. Still no help. Can you please suggest some solution. 

I am not being a proper disciple and asking regarding my material life. I know krsna is testing but I think I won't be successful in this test.already failed... Please suggest. 

Dandavat pranam 

Hare krsna. Ur servant. 

Rituraj krsna das 

HpS - ASA -- Hare Krsna. AGTSP. Paoho. Sometimes we have very Tamasic Karma. We are like turtles living off of decayed bodies in the bottom of the river, but if we have any spiritual awareness, religious awareness, dedication to truth, then we must try to do austerities for Krsna, for eternal life satisfying His delightful desires.

If we don't have any sense of spiritual loss or defeat, then where is the the possibility of doing anything? So, you feel spiritual depression, then you must have some perception of spiritual success.

Do what you can.

Even if it is to chant Hare Krsna one time, or listen to your patients and give them some KC dialog.

That way you will progress.

I don't know the details of India visit yet, but honestly may be better for us to meeting Kolkata.

Why is you material career down?

You finished a specialization, no?