Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva
AGTSP
PAMHO
A friend wrote to me on facebook.. She asked me to post this letter here.
She wrote to me this
Chandrita ya he tocado fondo. Ayer estaba conversando con el y me rechazo.. nisiquiera quiere tener sexo conmigo. Yo se que estoy buscando llenarme con algo externo.. y en verdad busco amor. Tu siempre me dices que debo amarme a mi misma. Pero no se como hacerlo.. Preguntale a tu guru porque siento que sino estoy con alguien otras son mejores que yo. Estoy harta de estar sola... Gracias por todo lo que compartes con nosotras. Tqm
Translation:
Candrita yesterday I was talking with him and he rejected me. He did not even want to have sex with me. I know that I am looking for something external. I am really searching for love. You always tell me that I have to love myself. But I do not know how to do it. Please ask your Guru why I feel that if I do not have a couple others are. I bebetter than me? I am sick of being alone
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Thank u Gurudeva
Please kindly forgive my offenses
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Cmdd
HpS - ASA -- Hare Krsna. AGTSP. paoho. Thank you for the letter but it contains some strange content for us as Sannyasis. First, "He did not even want to have sex with me." This is really a topic that should not be mentioned so directly to a Sannyasi, no? Of course, we are all learning how to be civilized, VAD, human beings in the West, so these mistakes are not so surprising. From our experience, you are doing O.K. You should be happy with your progress. You seem in the upper half of the race, and can say, "Now Candramukhi Devi Dasi, 100% perfection, next time!"
Would say, "He did not want to have any intimate dealings with me".
Putting things in that perspective then we would suggest that this is another strange, bit less strange, thing. In natural, happy, culture, ladys and gentlemen only have intimate dealings if they are married and then under prescribed conditions for getting good children. Othewise the result is going to be suffering. Suffering in Lima or suffering in Hell [which as described has many aspects in common with Lima, but really worse].
This feeds right into the general content of Mataji's anxiety. It seems to us to be very general, basic problem of the modern world, something that can really only be solved by fundamental shift in reality caused by the Super Weapon of Lord Caitanya, ISKCON, Bhakti-yoga.
Focus on chanting 16-nice rounds/day and following the 4-principles strictly. She may not be able to do this immediately, but she will make progress. This guaranteed. This is a characteristic of the soul, to strive and to see results. We can go to Hell or Lima, with great, great determination, or we can go to the Light, Heaven, Vaikuntha, which also exists within Lima, like the airport exists within Lima. We will strive. Even and ant strives to live, so make it for this ISKCON, Prabhupada, standard. Is she ISKCON girl? Mormon??
O.K.
Make this determination, then ask more questions. Inch by Inch, it's always a cinch.
We hope this has been useful to you also and of course about five or six more devotees in the same position. In the end, if you succeed, there will be an element of complete, absolute, personal, victory in the accomplishment.
Paoho...
HpS -ASA
