I have to say , I have just now, even though I'm getting richer from nem decentralized blockchain.. my mother would I guess want me to suffer as much as possible, because I defended my step little brother (for whom I had to tell in the winter why he couldn't see his father for twenty years, it was because his mother started a police investigation on my father about pedophily 20 years almost ago, just to get a complete denial for my father to see his child, but he is a drunkard also, but never seen him doing pedophily), not her child, and especially Srila Prabhupada.

My mother's fear is very strong now, because I was so stupid that I moved in with one of Bhakti Vikasa Swami's disciples named IP dasa, after I lost my only love in life.. Nitai Priya Devi Dasi.... I moved in with IP and his young girl friend, very much Krishna-consciousness trying girl. But soon it became obvious that he was only taking oxycont, burning it from aluminum foil,,,   that was his secret, and he said at the beginning already,, that he had already slept one night with my ex... but I mean oxycont is very strong opiate,,  so I guess he just tried to make me so called [xxx], or how it is said. Sorry my language. [It's O.K. Piggy censored it] But that seemed to be all the game about. But we had, thank Krishna, only one year rental contract, so I got away. But he became very like dominating towards the end, I guess he was afraid I would talk too much. But he made it all himself. How could one live in heaven forever and speak just for warmth of it?? He spoke how he started using book distribution to get XXX, and always he kept saying that women love XXX, ok so he has made 5 theater plays for ISKCON.. but. And then I heard in last winter that he would been XXX. And now in more spring I heard from Mahabala, another rape accusation from Turku Finland, about him, and another was his girlfriend's friend. But I had to came out when I heard that my ex Nitai Priya had a black eye, because she started drinking with different guys when we split up, even though lived ten years in temples all around the world, even though she said that she was only looking boys, I still don't see it like that, but that's my problem, we split up, when my father's father died and I tried consolidate him and tell about Krishna, but he was always yelling completely drunken that I should leave that non secy auntie type Nitai. And at the same time Nitai's father took alcohol and medications too much, and fell in wc and got a brain injury, quite bad, so wasn't seeing her too much, just listening to my father.

But the problem seems to be, for me now, that some freightening guys in Helsinki, Finland temple wants to defend somehow him , or maybe not, or maybe it slowly changes, but you know an actor on opiates, is very good, Maharaja, I think you have seen this. But I started thinking, because my mother so crazily detests all the movement, even though  she is artist, not always, but most of the times she continues making insults, and she wants me into mental asylum, to a looney house. Still I started a thinking process, that how are they treating people in here, in ISKCON, but maybe it's just my mother's endless anger, the darkness almost itself.

By the way, through Ter Kadamba Devi Dasi I got into contact with you, she saw me in Krishna Kshetrta Swami's facebook pages making some comments, and started to speak for me in private messages. Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Sriila Prabhupada.. I was waay too blue eyed about people who have diksha...

Hare Krishna, thyine humble servant(trying) Nanuk Henrichs

HpS - ASA -- Hare Krsna!  Jaya!  Your letters give a very strong perspective on things.  http://www.vedabase.com/en/iso/11

We should focus on the pure, spiritual world, but if we don't also take constant attention to the contamination of the material world, we will become Sahajiyas and take spiritual life cheaply, like fairy tales.