Hare krsna gurudev.

please accept my dandavats at your lotus feet. 

all glories to Srila Prabhupada.

hope your health is good. I am missing your physical association a lot . hope to meet you when you come to india. 

gurudev i am ok . sadhana is good than i expected. for once i am happy with my efforts. 16 +moderately ok rounds ..mostly finished by morning, 4 regs good , prasadam moderately regulated, mangal aarti, tulsi aarti and srimad bhagavatam regualarly , bhaktisastri classes going ok , wonderfull association of H.G.Mukunda dutta prabhu( he is going to give a seminar on yajya /sanskara that i am planning to join  plus lots of personal guidance ) , personal reading is ok but needs to be more intense ..hope to inprove in this area more once bhaktisastri finishes. Some of my bhaktisastri marks are out ( isopanisad 85/100, deity worship 99/100, NOD 94/95 ...bhagavat gita two papers left).

I am planning to sit for the fire sacrifice that we couldnt do at the time of initiation . H.H.Radha govind swami maharaj is giving initiation on 1st novmber. I seek your blessing . i will confirm my vows in front of the fire and other vaisnavas . I will keep your photo. thank you gurudev for accepting a person like me. i am trying and hopefully keep trying as much as i can to be better disciple. Thank you for tolerating me.I am currently trying to see everyone as a spirit soul and follow the instruction that you gave to chandramukhi mataji to tolerate all insults to the body knowing that no one can actually insult me as i am a spirit soul..it is helping a lot to tolerate my own body and my reciprocations with others . I fail sometimes but keep trying .

In bhaj i have been to barsana, madhuvan , talavan ...druva katha in madhuvan was really inspiring . in vrindavan now many Senior devotees are sharing their realizations of bhagavatam and Srila prabhupada mood as very mercifull...its helping me a lt to build a genuine appeciation and deep love for Srila prabhupada . He is not a fanatic preacher that most people make us feel. He loved everyone irrespective of their conditioned nature. Srila Prabhupada saw the soul and the best qualities in others . Gurudev you definetly are his son because you for me are his perfect representative of his most mercifull mood. I am indebted to you . Please be patient with me .

all glories to you . all glories to srila prabhupada .

hare krsna 

trying to be your servant.

rturaj krsna das.

HPS - We can do austerities, but they must be on the basis of good information. Seems you have that and whatever you lack Krsna will adjust. So go ahead with lord of enthusiasm expecting good results!