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3 years, 4 months ago by aja.govinda in Personal Sadhana Reports

Dearest Esteemed Guru Maharaj,

Please accept my most humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I am most humbled that you remembered a sinner like me. I feel that I am still very much a toddler in my spiritual life. I often try to walk, but fall again and again. Many a time, I have hurt myself from the fall. I am now trying to improve my sadhana. I am keeping a better track of how many rounds are remaining from my daily 16 rounds, and if some were left, I try to complete them the next day or before the end of the week. The one thing that I keep forgetting is the importance of taking shelter of you Guruji and taking your association. I get so involved and mentally insecure about my life, my job, my salary, my finances, my accounts, my taxes, on and on, etc..., that I forget to take shelter. I recently visited the church! It was the TAMUK BSM - Texas A&M University - Kingsville Baptist Student Ministry. One student invited me for a prayer session and so I went with him. I learned a lot and gained insight forcing me to reflect on my own faith from the prayers and sermon. The priest definitely put a lot of emphasis on the word of God and how the word became Jesus. I remember how you used to teach us about the Logos in your own lectures. I realized how much need there is for me to study the scriptures, both of my own Vaishnava tradition and the Christian faith, from which we can also learn a lot. I sometimes or often times feel bogged down by my corporeal desires, especially relating to material success. I think what life would have been like if I did not have those desires and if I led a much simpler life. The church sermon especially pointed out something that showed how shallow my relationship with God was. In John 4, Jesus talks with a Samaritan woman who accepts his word and spreads it to her townspeople. The woman was not a follower of Christ for any miracle or for any material gifts, but for his word. I realized how shallow my relationship with the Paramatma Shri Krishna was, wherein I ask him for material gains and don't ever think of worshipping Him only for His sake or knowing Him only for His sake. 

Maharaja, I have far to go on the spiritual path and am only an infant in wake of God's path.

Your aspiring servant,

Aja Govinda dasa


silly disciple Amd

.HpS AgtSP! Paoho. Sita abandoned her program with the university in Cuzco?

 your news is very nice to hear. Pray chant, to get a deep program from Krsna. Who are you keeping for associates?

again, your program seems super. You seem to be making a very substantial contribution to the happiness of this world