Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet !!!
All glories to Srila Prabhupada !!!!
Thank you very much for your reply to my previous letter...I am trying to understand what you told me...I am reading your answer time and time again..
The last paragraph you wrote :
"Seems to me the only thing we can really do is to pray to Krsna at the lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada very sincerely. If that doesn't work we seem to be lost." I find this statement very meaningful..!!!
May I apply this statement for my daily chanting japa? is this right ?
"Pray to Krishna at the lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada very sincerely"....this also refers at the time to chanting japa ?
I am thinking to take this thought as a very important instruction for all my life.....for the rest of my life...is this right ?
I have always been wondering how should I chant my rounds ?, what is the intention that I should have to chant, how my consciousness should be ?....because I am always wanting to "enjoy" my japa..." feel good "...and this conclusion that you gave me I think is very good for me...because I released all longing for the "result"......it makes me free to chant my rounds in a fruitive way...with attachment to the result.....but rather becomes a prayer...a prayer with humility....recognizing that I do not control "Krishna's mercy" and I am not the "enjoyer" of my japa.....do you understand me, Gurudeva?
Just pray to Krishna sincerely and humbly begging for His causeless mercy , and try to understand that I am not the cause of the result.....Now, I am trying to meditate in this statement that you gave me when I am chanting my rounds.....it is right ?
HpS - Seems right, but you can sincerely pray for many things in your service of Japa. You can chant in the mood of. "ayi Nanda tanuja kinkaram..."
SB is full of prayer moods!H
With regard to my service....the book distribution, since a time ago I am going every Sunday to Chosica Mandir and I am setting a small table with Srila Prabhupada books.
I am also trying to reception to new people who come to visit the temple, welcome to the visitors, I think this service is quite fit my nature because I like dealing with people and talk with them.
For some years I have a chronic problem in the joint of my leg and this prevents me from walking for a long time, I can not do sankirtan on buses as before, a lot of walking causes me pain, that is why I am trying to distribute some books on Sundays in Chosica Temple and as you say : if we are following the process right then Krishna sends sincere people to give them some books and talk a little bit about Krishna Consciousness !
Gurudeva, for the time being I say goodbye to you..
Please give me your blessings to perform my service and also to understand that I am just a fool and I just depend on your mercy to do something right.
Please forgive all my offenses !!!
Thank you very much for all your mercy !!!!!
Trying to be your disciple !!!
Mitravinda devi dasi.
HpS - Great. So many people come and never have someone who becomes their friend not stays in contact with them. Your Chosica Sankirtan sounds nice. Find ways to do Sankirtan during the week. Join others.