Hare Krishna Gurumaharaja !!!
Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet !!!!!
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada !!!!!!
I am writing to Blog after a long time....
basically to tell you how I am now...
Only by YOUR MERCY my spiritual life is a little better.....I am developing a little more desire to move forward and purify my existence....I want to develop more and more sincere desire to make progress in my spiritual life !!!!!! How can I do this, Gurudeva?
HpS - Upadesamrta quotes BG, "sangat sanjayate kamah" - Our desires and ambitions develop from the company we keep!
Looking back in the last years...actually I did not have much desire to make progress, I was doing my spiritual life just as a heavy duty....just for doing it.....but I did not have a sincere desire to make progress...
Gurudeva, I have made many mistakes....you know that....I have lost a lot of time....I did a lot of stupid things, wasting time.....but now, after all this time I do not want to repeat the same mistakes, I want to learn from all the mistakes I made in the past....and not make them again anymore...
Now again....I am trying to improve my sadhana getting up at 2 :00 a.m and chanting enthusiastic rounds before FMP......in this way FMP is deeper and exciting for me....I like it...!!!
Thank you so much Gurudeva !!!!! for all your kindness and patience with this sinful soul !!!!! Only by your mercy a sinful person like me can no longer commit more sins !!!!! Now I want to have a pure life forever !!!!
In the next letter I will write to you about my service...about book distribution....about my little plan to do something.....to do something to serve you and please you....as well as Srila Prabhupada..!!!
Thank you so much !!!!!
Trying to become your disciple !!!!
HpS - In ISKCON we are all trying to understand Srila Prabhupada, no? So, often we get caught up in the formal rituals of our Yoga and don't get a chance to associate with him personally. O.K. That may be Niyama agraha to some extene , but there is still good result from it. We follow His Sadhana because we want relief from distress etc. But basically we must have some higher understanding or we could be Mormons or Jehovah's Witnesses or Catholic and that would give us so much more access to society and material well being.
So, we have been making progress.
Let us go ahead.
Seems to me the only thing we can really do is to pray to Krsna at the lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada very sincerely.
If that doesn't work we seem to be lost.