Hare krsna gurudev

All glories to Srila Prabhupada

Please accept my pranams at your lotus feet.

HpS - Wow!   AGTSP!!!   Everyone keeps writing that we have lotus feet, but we sure don't see that. We are wrestling with desires to drown our sorrows in Sweet Rice, but keep some control.    We hope we are useful servants to Srila Prabhupada. May he be glorified in our lives.

Braj dhama is very merciful like mother and also strict like a father. My sadhana is again unstable but trying to become stable again. Sense control is also not good but will try better. You asked how long I plan to stay ? Maybe if krsna and your mercy stays then maybe till Kartik 15 th November or atleast till 10th November. But don't know if krsna will allow.

I am planing to shift with other devotees. I was living alone before so I think mind and body was not allowing me to do bhakti properly. If I stay with devotees then maybe under them I may improve. They are very sincere so might be I will become sincere.

HpS - It certainly shall help.

I am learning slowly about myself. Should we love ourselves?

HpS - Of course, but just enough to serve Krsna!  He is very unhappy without our service, friendship!

If with all the faults and unnatural perverted tendency should I love myself. Does spiritual life means dislike towards one's body. We are not the body but should we dislike ourselves?

HpS - Again, it is not so much a matter of like or dislike. It is a matter of understanding: This is the kind of body, mind, Karma that I have.  Everything comes from Krsna. How can I use it for Krsna's service.   Of course it is always an individual challenge!  Always new. Different. You are not a spefici type of dog. You are a new type of dog.

Gurudev, I got  Gaura Nitai deities and am arranging the paraphernalia for their worship. Maharaj kindly give them a name and pray for Them to come in the deity. Mukunda Dutta Prabhu taught me deity worship .The sodaso upachara  puja.

HpS - Well, they are not really, "Deities". They are Gaura Nitai. Thing is to get to know Them as soon as possible so They can be comfortable in your home.

Below are their picture. Kindly give them a name and please request to appear into the deity . I am not qualified to worship them but somehow please you and Srila prabhupada allow me to assist you in your service to them.

Always trying to be a servant and indebted to you and Srila Prabhupada .

Rturaja krsna das 

Vrindavan

HpS - Start with the names Nitai and Nimai and see how They like that. Better get some clothes for Them before they freeze to death!