Dear Hanumat Presaka Swami, please accept my humble obeisances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada!

[I figured you will be busy as it gets closer to your Vyasapuja, so in order to not be of any burden, I am posting this now. You also asked me to not send you personal emails but post everything here so thus here we are.]

I want to take this auspicious upcoming occasion of your birth to appreciate you and all the inspiration, guidance, healing and most importantly, Krishna Consciousness you have shared and inspired in the hearts and minds of so many souls in this world.

You are so kind to have formally initiated me, and I will always be grateful and appreciative for this.

In my past relationships with devotees, I have felt so much pain, distress and insecurity, which I feel stimulated me to act inappropriately towards others and myself. I feel this instigated much distress and confusion to everyone involved.

I have also noticed that over the last year I have lost a taste for chanting and reading. From my understanding of Srila Prabhupada’s books and lectures, this is due to offenses.

I am deeply remorseful for acting in ways that I feel were offensive. I am now working hard to change my own attitudes and behaviors in the way I interface with people to nonviolent communication. As a result, I feel a need in my life for love, transparency and understanding, not fear, anger, accusations or fighting, as could be said previously.

I request you for forgiveness of any offenses I have made, as well as for your understanding and acceptance/recognition of my strong efforts to better myself, and your blessings/prayers so I may in the future have better and closer relationships with you, others, ISKCON and devotees in general. I feel this will help me to be more secure in devotion and Krishna consciousness, as well as regain my taste for chanting and reading Srila Prabhupada’s books, which are very important to me.

I ask you to accept these sincere words of appreciation and my new found determined efforts to better myself, as well as have better relationships with others as my gift to you on this auspicious day.

Hare Krishna,
Prahlada-Nrsimha Dasa
Thank you.

[p.s. side note: I am learning a lot from the Nonviolent Communication courses of Marshall Rosenberg and feel it is greatly helping my relationships with others (devotees) and myself. Since you say this forum is for everyone's benefit, I would like to share a free download of his courses with others here:

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/pjiay3c83x26arc/AACyi5ArXL7RnXpWud6Nes_Fa?dl=0
If you do not feel this is appropriate, please feel free to remove this bottom section/side note]

HpS - ASA ---  Hare Krsna.   We offer our obiesances to you, esteemed Prahlada-nrsmha das.   Thank you for your very fine letter.   We didn't ask you not to send us personal e-mails, but because our relations in the past have had some fire and brimstone in them I was just trying to include a third person in the communication, Nitai-gaurasundara Das. He is a pretty neutral fellow and so could give a perspective on our individual insanities and make any individual communications productive.

However, we just can't handle much individual correspondences. We were getting 400-500 letters per/month before Prahlada-nrsmha Das (Czech Republic, vedabase.com) started this Blog for us. We recommend it to everyone. Now we are handling about 150 letters a month, because people see what others wrote and what we write and so, so much re-dun-dun-dancy is eliminated.

O.K?

Your link looks fine!

"maya tatam idam sarvam..." devotee is a pirate who uses everything for Krsna. Including communication skills!

Prabhupada is the Founder - Acharya of ISKCON, no?   Any relation that we have within ISKCON that does not improve our personal intimate connection with him is unhealthy and should be rectifed, no?

Thank you for so, so, so much austerity.

So much to do.
More news as you have time! !      !