Dear Guru Maharaj,

Thank you for your council, you may do with me as you like. I may pour out my heart and mind to you, but I gladly accept your decision. No success could come without your sanction.

Someone once said "It's not who we think we are that limits us, but who we think we're not." I used to have to take medicine for this anxiety; Brghupati prabhu would stomp my foot when I'd freeze. In comparison, I ranked #50 worldwide this year. I haven't had my breakthrough yet, but miracles do happen and with your help I hope one will.

In the meantime I'm meditating on the illiterate Brahmina, Ramacandra's ant, and Sitadevi. Know that my intention is not to reduce my service but to expand it. I'd like to compete transcendentally with my godbrothers who are maharathis, but I feel a bit discouraged because whereas they are dovetailing amazing talents to distribute books, I'm kind of going against the grain. I vowed that book distribution will remain the cornerstone of my life; I'm just considering ways to build on it. Krsna has a perfect plan for me, just trying to get there. How fortunate I don't have to do it on my own! Thank you very much.

(I'm here with H.G. Etasa Krsna prabhu, looking forward to an interview!)

Your humble servant,

Bhakta Eric

P.S.

Maybe You'll see me in Mayapur!

HpS - Ramananda ray did solitary Bhajan. He trained girls to dance for Lord Jagannatha. No one else knew much about it. Bible says: When you do you fasts and austerities, don't go out with a long face and show the world that you are a great tapasvi. Do your austerities alone in your closet where only God can see asked God who sees all things in private will reward you in private. Of course we like to compete for Krsna also. So many ways to distribute books! Krsna send any nice people on Sankirtan?