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Please accept these respectful obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada, the previous acharyas
and His Holiness Hanumatpresaka Swami.
Because of you, these souls receive the great opportunity to rehabilitate themselves through the knowledge and devotional service to all of you, dear devotees of Sri Krishna.
This is the eleventh time I edit this letter, excuse my delay Guru Maharaja,<img alt="blush" height="23" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/embarrassed_smile.png" title="blush" width="23" /> it is because there have been many events, activities of family order, devotional service, etc. (Besides my bad english grammar) Google translate and Gandharva helped me. I’m learning so, I hope write you by myself soon.
HpS - ASA --- Thank you very much!!!
I hope this letter find you recovered in your health. How are you Gurudeva?
ASA - Well, we, like you, are Sat-Cit-Ananda, but Brother Ass, is Asat-Acit-Nirananda, mortal, stupid and miserable. At 67 years old our eyes, memory, teeth, respiration, skin, heart, hearing are all starting to become weak and disappear. Is good thing, because then they will be useful in making a new body for someone.
Destruction, old age, death is just the other half of the cycle or growth, youth and birth, no.
O.K. If it is for Krsna, then it becomes part of our ever growing life in the play of Goloka!
Thank you, thank you for your visit; every time you come we learn a lot, you give us many realizations.<img alt="smiley" height="23" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.png" title="smiley" width="23" />
I infinitely thank for your great mercy, Guru Maharaja, for giving me the diksha initiation. I am very happy and grateful. Our immature desire to serve is being tested by Maya. It has not been easy during the last two months. We are fighting against our mind and ego in the fire of Grhastha asrama. Is hard understand karma, specially when this show up strongly, and is harder to learn from it, because we need a lot of humility. After all, albeit painfully, we’re learning a lot. We really want to clean and change our hearts Gurudeva, but sometimes this is so hard. We know that Krishna put us together in this asrama so we can learn from each other. Sometimes it is very hard and difficult; sometimes it's very sweet and fills us with strenght.
About this point, Gurudeva, some devotees say that relationships are like a mirror, so, if we see any mistake in the other, with a lot of humility we can see those mistakes is in ourselves. Please if this works this way, can you explain it (authoritatively) to me this Gurudeva? It has to do with consciousness? We attract what we think? Also, during your last visit, His Holiness said that we should not tangle with the external aspects of devotees, ie, with aspects of his personality (personality as a mask, right?). For me, this was a BIG lesson, because it's about quotidian relationships with devotees, and understand this authoritatively, would mean to be less offensive and learn more about me in aspects that I could not identify before because of my big ego.
LAD Prabhu told us, about anartha nivritti (we don’t know if we are in that level) but prabhu LAD said: first step: look for defects, second ACCEPT them, third step: WORK ON IT, all these tips are helping us, we do not know if one day we will not argue anymore, but we know that we can learn through each person to understand what Krishna wants us to learn.
About Sadhanna:
Rounds & Principles: I have had difficult days Gurudeva, but despite the onslaught of Maya, I still struggling to keep up with 16 rounds daily, 3.5 Principles, 4 Mangalaratikas in the temple a week, minimum.
Readings: Krishna Book, NOD (chapter 5), recently starting Srimad Bhagavatam, Canto1, with Gandharva.
About seva: I'm at that stage of looking at what service I must do Gurudeva, education really inspires me. What issues should I consider to know how to choose which service can please you and Krishna?
HpS - ASA --- Really the best way to know what your service in Varna-ashrama-dharma is, is to chant Hare Krsna. Slowly, slowly, certainly, your Japa and other service in ISKCON, eg. Mangala arti, SB, will make it clearer to you what is your service, Varna-ashrama-dharma.
Just continue that way. Be a good girl! Be a good wife. Love your husband, even if he is a crazy rat at times. Your love for him does not depend on his love for you. If you don't want kids, then you MUST adopt Gaura Nitai, your personal Deities (can also be Madan-bihari and Radharani) as you kids. They are very jealous and may make you miserable if you neglect their cookies and milk!!
Some Sankhya, but mostly try and see everyone but your husband as your children, sometimes naughty, sometimes nice. Bring them all to Radha-Krsna. Make Radha-Krsna your life. Pray for Their individual mercy on you alone. Of course, it comes through Lalita devi, but she just passes it along with a smile and no changes. You must taste it, bitter sweet.
For now:
Pujari On Friday: at noon I help Prabhu Omkara in the pujari, serving lunch to their Lordships, washing bowls, cleaning etc.
ASA - You are very fortunate. Please! Give our respects to him.
Garlands on Wednesday: For the altar of Sita-Rama-Laksmana-Hanuman.
Congregational development: Omkara Prabhu asked for our help, so we are helping a little.
House: Puja, I am trying to strengthen my relationship with Sri Panca Tattva and Jagannatah, Baladeva & Subhadra and I'm being more careful in punctuality, cleanliness and more focus on worship, according to what Gaura Gadadhara mataji taught us. The new deities (big ones) are now at home, Adi Lila mataji (prabhu Jiva-Sakti's wife) made them clothes.<img alt="smiley" height="23" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.png" title="smiley" width="23" />
Gurumaharaja I'm sorry, I did not accept the position of Nimsar treasury, because the present circumstances, if I assume a position of great responsibility, I could neglect other things, and because we are going through tests, I thought I had to be cautious. Meanwhile I'm helping Isvari mataji in communications and suggested my father to help us a little in strategic planning. This to improve NIMSAR management (Do you remember I told you about my father? I introduced him to you the day of my initiation, his name is Arturo, he is an economist, specializes in projects and has 15 years of experience in international cooperation, he have a MBA in business administration) The workshop is very interesting because it can be applied to any service.
My father is feeling very inspired by Srila Prabhupada purposes. After a long time, I did not see so inspired and rejuvenated, he admires sincerity of devotees and each Sunday takes its association and prasadam. On the other hand my mother has started making tapestry of Lord Jagannath, she respect our philosophy, she is catholic, is very faithful to Virgin Mary but, something happened the first time she saw a deity of Lord Syamasundara, she even wanted to buy the bronze deity, but things happened that prevented it, she loves the form of Govinda. I just worry that she is not a vegetarian, Gurudeva, I have asked her to be very careful when making tapestries, so not to commit offenses, but I think it is a way to get closer to Krishna, what do you think about that?
Living near Radha Madana Bihari is not cheap, to serve a beloved devotee of Krishna, will change everything, but we are willing to sacrifice in order to purify and someday (I hope soon) be good servants.
May Lord Nrisimhadeva always take care of you.
Your neophyte servant
Indira-Sakti devi dasi
HpS - Thank you. I think everybody realizes what a lot of stress this is for you. You are not an ordinary girl. You are The Average Peruvian Girl. (Ha! Ha! Hare!). If you figure out how to use Srila Prabhupada's magical gifts, then Any Peruvian Girl, even you mother, can figure it out.
Chant Hare Krsna and be happy. Try your best but be patient, relaxed. First focus -- 16-nice rounds.
