All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Dear Gurudeva, please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet.

ASA - AGTSP... Lettuce feet.

I am sorry for not reporting on the last months but I did not want to bother you with my problems. I was serving Sri Sri Radha Madana Gopal for several months and in the meaning some things happened and I decided to wait to tell you.

One year ago aproximately I began a relationship with Bhadrasena das, Harikesa Swami's disciple. After some months I decided to go out the temple to . . . and to know him better.  Since one month we decided to live together in his parent's house and to test to live together. We are aware that it is not the Vaishnav protocol. Now we are expecting a baby and we are going to formalize our relationship as soon as possible. To avoid some criticism in the temple, only a few devotees know it. We are expecting some advise from you if you want to. I beg for you pardon for my offenses to you. I trying to chant my rounds and I hope in some moment recover the service at your lotus feet.

Would you please to change the names?  We don´t want any one to know by now.

HpS - ASA -  Names changed, but you said some people already know.

Your hopeful servants:
Tulasi devi dasi
Bhadrasena das.

HpS - ASA - Everyone in the village probably knows about your relationship. Krsna knows. If you were living together in his parents house that means they approve the relationship and basically you are married.

Be an upright lady. A lady only has children by her husband. This is not an "experiment". An experiment has to be carried out according to certain procedure. So, as a result you probably did not get much information from this irregular experiment.

When you took initiation you knew that 16-rounds and 4-principles were essential for human life. O.K. Were your stupid actions (basically all of us are doing greatly stupid things, like this, or smaller stupid things) done after full effort to act properly? Has this been an accidental falldown, or an intentional falldown?

In any case take a vow of a certain number of rounds that you KNOW you can do daily until Janmastami and then do them for your babies welfare that he will be a devotee of Krsna. Then tell us the result.