Hare Krsna Beloved and respected Gurudeva

AGTSP

PAMHO

I hope this meets You in really good health ¡¡

HpS - ASA -- We do pranayama rather continuously now, to profundicize our prana!

As I told U, this is my report on the second ekadasi of the month ¡¡

I am like sabotaging myself.   I took a job that forces me to do things that I did not do before like cleaning floor, windows,accommodate things taking orders in order to be humble, tolerant, I also have more opportunity to interact with people. I had to quit this temp job due to I had to catch up on in order to study for the BV exam. I almost covered everything the thing is that I focused more on answering the questions and I just read the translations not the purports soooo I am reading again, because I realized that still I am not taking the SB in my heart I have a lot to heal....

I am taking psychoterapy, my pyschology is a christian devotee he respects our beliefs and also tell me that taking shelter in God is the best I can do, but also give love love love to others to everybody... as i remembered H H Bhakti Thirta Swami said once.. "All the problems that we have, all are just for lacking of love" I realized that even if my parents gave me too much love they always keep me in one secure place and do not allow me to grow so I am an spoiled child... I have to heal that and many many other things...

I am reading right now six canto part 2...Indra¡¡ I feel very identify with him due to he is bewildered with pride, lust and he is always in problems because of that BUT due to Lord's mercy he always return to the right path. First I guess is to be honest with oneself realize how low we are, sometimes we are too bewilder that we do not understand all the hell and trash we are creating I may say excrement that is my case I am creating or created.. hurting others etc, I feel so embarrased for that, so I want to ask for forgiveness, my mom used to say what others can do with your sorry.? I am sorry the damage is done?? buuu ...those words discouraged me, but I guess one thing that I can DO is to pray for the person or people I hurt, because is not me who may help them is Krsna ¡¡ with my austerities for them or my prayers who actually help them.. am i right?? 

HpS - ASA -  Generally, Sraddha sabde, visvas kahe (in NOI)...  just by doing regular service we adjust all of our stupid offenses to others. Maybe you were Indra in your previous life. Now you have chance to participate in Srila Prabhupada's ISKCON!!!!      Esoteric         Have Spiritual Brothers.  Get married to Krsna.    Give Him love. He is very jealous lover.

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On this canto I read this staatement: ATMAVAT SARVA BHUTESU: One should feel happiness and distress of others as his own ¡¡¡ JAYA I hope to reach this state one day ¡¡¡

I am in contact with devotees like Patraka, palika, Madhumati dd, yugala, Madhumanjari (skype) , kamalangi from chile ..., lad, abhirama... actually we had a very nice meeting with abhiram last sunday I will help sattva also in august, tomorrow asa sanga meeting in chosica (coordinating your arrival) and finally meeting again Radha Madana Bihari.. I do not have any fixed service yet in any temple I want to read more, heal more and then go and ask for one service what I can do Gurudeva?? Oh I almost forget 16/4 are ok¡¡¡¡

HpS - What is needed!

I talked with my ex coordinator in UAP she told me that yes I may return to teach but it is not already fixed ¡¡ Let's see what Krsna wants...

HpS - Engrish teechr!

See u in FMP and FEP ¡¡ I got all your messages on twitter ¡¡¡

Thanks Gurudeva

Trying to be iur disciple

Candramukhi dd

HpS - See you this evening!