bhaktina isabelle_sadhanna report

8 years, 9 months ago by Isabelle in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna Gurudeva!<img alt="smiley" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.png" title="smiley" width="23" />

Please, accept my humble obeisances

All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

I hope this letter finds you well. We don't have internet at home, I miss read your blog more often <img alt="sad" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/sad_smile.png" title="sad" width="23" />. We are excited about your next visit and everything  that  being organized. I want to thank you for all the blessings that we are receiving, there is a lot of service to do and daily I ask Srila Prabhupada for enough intelligence to balance the service and  home duties in the best way possible. We are almost for two months in Chosica. The atmosphere here is very peaceful and friendly, living near Radha Madhana Bihari and the devotees is so good that it seems otherworldly.

Seva, study and realizations: Many good things have happened ,Gurudeva. I'm taking the worship course with Gaura Gadadhara mataji, she is very good and inspires us a lot, she is teaching us about brahminical culture, which I like more and more. In addition, recently I finished the Guru-disciple course with Param Padam Prabhu and it has been very good, with many very interesting topics.  I learned more about the position of Srila Prabhupada as maximum siksa guru of ISKCON and I have also learned more about the responsibility that involves receiving initiation, I feel more aware of the line of disciplic succession, so I feel an immense gratitude for all the previous acaryas, Srila Prabhupada and you. Receive initiation and all that involve,  is really the maximum mercy that Krishna can give us through His pure devotee,  it's also a great responsibility and I really do not find big words to show you my eternal gratitude for giving protection to this flea, who is trying to serve you. I know I'm not qualified, but  by the causeless mercy of Krishna, I have a lot of enthusiasm for it. All educational projects that develop inspire me greatly, to the point that I want to pursue a career in the university  that allows me to serve you properly with what is going on here in Perú, Gurudeva. The school project inspires me a lot, Prabhu Gandharva is also excited.

On the prospect of being parents, we have discussed and we conclude that this responsibility would involve a lot of energy, time and laksmi, issues currently not spare us but is ok for two of us. I have 30 and he is 47,  thought we could invest that energy in educational projects. We are not going to have children and this idea is giving us much more determination for our service. Prabhu Gandharva agree and give me all his support so that I suddenly can start a career and simultaneously start the Bhakti Sastri, but first I need to know what you think about this?, I would like to have your guidance and blessings before I start go on with this initiatives.

HpS - ASA -- AGTSP!     paoho.    Looking at your situation through electric cables, three thousand miles away, I would advise that you wait for the Bhakti-sastri until you get first initiation. O.K?  You can do other reading and studying, KRSNA book with other devotees, Caitanya-caritamrta.  Informal.

Career?? It is mostly the teachers that you will have and not the subject, no?  Find good teachers, but some careers we see that might be good would be journalism, history, law, education, communication, publication, social work, psychology. Even try a wide range to start. Hotel/Restaurant - Tourism.

Sadhana, readings: I'm trying to improve my sadhana beginning at 3:45 a.m so i can finish my 16 rounds before 7:30 am, That is the goal, for now I'm doing it at least 4 times a week. We regularly attend mangalaratik and sing for Sri Sri Radha Madhana Bihari. On my readings, before the Bhagavatam, I thought it was good to finish the books I have not finished before, so I'm in Chapter 60 of the Krishna Book (so far I can not believe i have in my hands a book that talks about the Supreme Personality of Godhead hobbies!) and then the teachings of Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, where I stayed in half.

HpS - Very nice. The amazing thing is that each time your read the KRSNA book it becomes more intense and you would swear that there are things in it that were not there the last time you read it. Probably Lord Caitanya hears Srila Prabhupada's Krsna book daily, no????

Questions: There are issues that I cannot understand. On one hand always Srila Prabhupada explains the omnipresence of Krishna within His 3 energies, what puzzles me is His personal form. I assume, that He knows everything, just as I assume that Lord Baladeva and His expansions are equally aware of everything, but there are some pastimes in the Krishna Book where it seems not always is like this, for example, during the Govardhan Hill pastime, Krishna blushes as He thought that Lord Baladeva discovered Him observing the chest of the gopis, however Baladeva was smiling at the frightened faces of the gopas. How does the absolute Krishna consciousness  works? and how He seems to have a limited consciousness sometimes? As happens in this pastime, he does not know what goes on in the mind of one of His expansions as Sri Baladeva?

HpS - Ahhh!  Very intesting.  I would say from what we have learned that our modern industrialized culture is very much Jnana oriented. The Britannica also supports this. We believe that knowledge and logical ability is supreme, that is how to understand and control matter and even organize communities and personal relations. Our view, the Vedica view, is that people come first.

Radharani refuses to know,
   Radharani refuses to grow.

         She 'knows' what She needs to know to enhance Her service.   If you were God and were all powerful would you want to 'KnoW'  everything???  Of course, not.  How much fun is it to know what all the wrapped packages are at your birthday party!??  Stupid. Of course, you don't want to know.  So Krsna is not primarily omni-scient.  He is primarily all-blissfull.  (sat)-cit-ANANDA.
O.K?  He knows what he needs to know. His other expansions take care of the details.

Thank you very much for you time, mercy and patience Gurudeva.

I say goodbye respectfully 

May Lord Nrisimhadeva always take care of you.<img alt="smiley" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.png" title="smiley" width="23" />

Your servant

Bhaktina Isabelle
HpS - ASA --  Thank you.  Our respects to the Prince and Princess!  We will be in Peru in just six weeks!