Hare Krishna dear gurudeva! Please accept my humble obeisances.
All glories to Sri Sri Gaura Nitai
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
All glories to you!
I hope you are doing well! I had written you some month ago but I don’t know if you read it, because you were already traveling..
I was dealing with a great challenge and I was all the time thinking about you told me "If you are feeling big enthusiasm, don't be surprised to get big tests also.” Anyway I’m back on track again. Because of this, I could realize how important is taking shelter of guru, sastra and sadhu specially when our intelligence is covered.
Well, Finally I took the decision to give up my job at september and go to Mayapur for living there for a time. As I told you before. My spiritual master His Grace Mahatma Prabhu wants me there because there are a lot of work to do for Soul Tools and he wants I work with him. I will go for studying also. So if Krishna allows me, I will be there on October and the ideal is to stay there but Indian laws has changed some days ago and there’s no way to extend student visa in India. Once visa expired one have to come back to their country to get new visa or maybe by going to another country but not near to India though. So now we are waiting for lighting and trying to plan a way to extend the visa in some way in the future.
About my sadhana, I was able to organize my schedule according to my nocturne work, of course. So, I’m still doing the complete morning program at home but at noon. Trying to keep 16 rounds done after the program and following 4 principles, studying bhakti sastri (now the other part: Bhagavad gita), worshiping deities very happily. A picture attachment.
Still very enthusiastic doing a lot of service. How can I develop goodness modality if I’m doing a lot of things all the time of course in the passion modality?
ASA - AGTSP. Very nice to hear from you. I think you have to set priorities and then even though you do many things you will understand that you can't do all of them. Have full morning and evening program.
I like to have a balance between both. I think that maybe I have a nature mixed with both. I like to be busy all the time and thinking new things to do, i love challenges by doing different things all the time but sometimes these brings me a lot of anxiety. And on the other hand I love some bhraminical duties like studying and worship deities by which I feel more deeply connected to Krishna and with much more fixed consciousness.
Gurudeva, What happens when a devotee get a lot of knowledge about sastra by studying books and starts to feel pride for that
ASA - It is like a snake with a jewel on the head. Ha! Ha! Ha!
How can one stay humble in that position?
ASA - By trying to teach all the knowledge you have.
On the other hand, Is there something that you want that I do as a service for you dear gurudeva?
HpS - ASA -- 1. Give your regards to The Mahatma (Das), 2. Really focus on getting ready for first initiation. 3. Send us some news from time to time about your Yatra. 4. Tungavidya Devi Dasi was trying to renew her student visa while in India. Hmm. Guess she can't do it now. Generally speaking its good to come back to your country every year or so anyway, no? Hare Krsna!
your servant and siksa disciple,
Bhaktin Belen
