Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva:

AGTSP

PAMHO

I hope U are fine Gurudeva, I saw some pictures from you in Spain from Bhadra vardhana U look GOOD ¡¡¡¡ I can say even younger than before JAYA ¡¡¡

Gurudeva thank U for your letter on may 14th.. when U tell me that I do not have to doubt and that it is better to die chanting HK/HR.. You told me to give you a report after 5 days.. so sorry GM I delayed a little bit. I was not feeling so good, but even if I was not feeling so good  I complete my rounds and even chant my delay rounds¡¡¡

I have learned a lot.. the mind can be your best friend or our worst enemy¡¡ The problem was I did not take shelter on the Holy Names.. also my false ego is HUGE, I MUST have in my heart that U told me once... IN KC we respect even an ant ¡¡¡ I did not act like a second initiation devotee.. MAYA defeated me :( buuuu , but it just a second battle of many many others that is not the final war. Also I have serious problems of communication I am trying to work on it.

 I have no job, I am taking some time to rest and try to heal my heart. Palikda dd is helping me in finding a job, my friends family and specially U are helping me a lot. I am going out today on SANKIRTAN ¡¡¡ with Madhumati dd (I hope SP gives us His mercy)

As always GM I do not want to pretend to be a fake cmdd U know all my faults. In the last 3 months I did not act as a proper second initiated devotee I offended many many devotees first U, so please with my head onto your lotus feet please kindly forgive me, and help me that others also forgive me. The only thing GM is that with all my limitations I tried to do my best, but without the shelter of my rounds obviously it was impossible. At this point I just want to be iur disciple again, I am raising for mangala artik, studying SB again... etc...

I am sad extremely sad GM I can not lie to U, but happy at the same time for your eternal shelter. So I will do all my best so when U come in August encounter with an aceptable CMDD, I hope to be a good tool  in your eternal sankirtan. I have learned that without 16/4 it is impossible to act properly LESSON LEARNED 

Sorry for this poor report...

Trying to be iur disciple

CMDD

HpS - ASA ---  If 15% of the people in the world were as good as you it would be heaven on earth. Seems that maybe you have fought 157-rounds with The Witch and lost two. Once we are chanting we are connected to Krsna. He has a plan for your service you can't even begin to imagine!   Everything that happens while we are chanting properly becomes a part of that.
Returning from Argentina with a BIG bag of gold. Now you can help everyone much more if you want to .