All gloires to Sri Sri Gaura Nitay ,to All Srila Prabhupada, All glories to his feet Dear Gurudava,

I hope your health accompanying ... A long time ago since I wrote you, and I have no excuse; speak a word with you on your visit to Chile and asks him about the dreams I've had with you !!

, well give me your answer and left very happy, also very inspired to keep striving in Krishna consciousness;

Also I made the comment that since initiation gave me a year ago about my anarthas attacked me mass also helped me with that.

Thank you very much.

Currently I have a job where they pay me well, I occupy time in my son and also in Gaura Nitai, but I must confess that time my sadhana low for having bad association and fail on some principle, leave my service in the kitchen of the deity and somehow give me a maya, never stop singing my rounds, neither ate meat nor jugue gambling, I had just a bad association under my consent, now I can do a service without touching fire ... all this brought me much suffering and I'm paying the consequences of my actions which I realized once again that associated with maya and surrender to lust blurs the intelligence and only makes nonsense,

I am very sorry for my actions and I cry and suffer for them, what I liked best is the service in the pujari and now Iand now I must wait six months following strictly the principles to serve the Lord (assistant pujari) which is fair.

Well since a month ago again and strictly follow the 4 principles, singing my 16 rounds, I'm reading the teachings of Lord Caitanya, the BG afternoon and also must tell you that Krishna in his infinite mercy, I have in my house Gaura Nitai !! and this for several days (1 month) makes my sadhana is a stronger, get up early, singing aṣṭaka Guru, Govinda and today also japa joe with you and the devotees also taketh the course of Bhakti Priya Sakhi sastri that will impart dd and Paramesvara D from April. since giving me initiation had a very difficult year where Maya was merciless and I attacked subtly and since I have to Goura Nitai in my house, my sadhana is to strengthened but still maya insists and I feel weak, I feel hypocritical, I strive but I think it is not enough ...

I just want to give to the Feet of Krishna and do a good service, but I feel with acute depression, I feel lonely, I have faith that everything is fleeting !! I just want to do the right thing, but my ignorance is such that I fear this material world, I just want happiness I'm tired of suffering and find myself trapped in this poor sense of intelligence.

Hopefully I can understand by Gurudeva and help me.

Your eternal servant Krisangi Devi Dasi

PS: I am using a translator, sorry I am not good at English. I sent photos of MI Goura Nitai and mia to be reminded of my face donkey. I hope to meet daily in Japa joe. Jaya Radha and Krishna.

HpS - ASA - No foto de su Caro Burra!      Gracias su carta. Su situacion es bastante comun. Yo siento solo muchas veces. Realmente sin la amistad de Krsna sentimos solo. Cada Gopi siento sola a veces, pero Krsna viene y habla con ellas. Son chicas, no muy madura. Y Krsna esta asegurando que El es su amigo y Ella es una amiga individual para ella. Nunca va a dejar Su amistad individual.

O.K. Necesitamos escapar de la illusion de la Bruja y obtener amigas/gos en Vraja eternos. Claro, es una lucha para todos nosotros. Ya estamos obvservando, involucrado en una lucha entre la GBC de cosas fundamentales! Principios super basicos. Tentaciones de poder, fama etc. que puede ruinar ISKCON.
Levantate temprano y cumplir con sus rondas con el mejor entusiasmo que tiene!
Escribra nos.

Actua como su hija puede decir con orgullo, "Eso es mi Mama!".