Hare Krishna Gurudeva, Please accept my obeisances at your lotus feet, All glories to Srila Prabhupada, all glories to you and your wonderful appearance in this world. I especially want to thank your shelter all these years, especially today I thank you, for give it to me being completely aware that not deserve it, thanks for being so understanding always, thank you for loving us, I really don't know what else to say, who hopes to serve you Sarad Bihari Dasi HpS - AGTSP. Thank you. I think you "deserve" a lot of the help you are getting from Krsna. As far as I can tell you are trying pretty hard to deal with your Karma and life. Don't give up. Do your best. Every austerity done for Krsna has eternal effect, for everybody's welfare.