All glories to Sri Sri Gouranga Nityananda
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
All glories to Sri Hanumatpresaka Swami Maharaja

Please accept my humble obeisance
I really hope that all of your plans are pleasing Krsna and your health is very strong. My name is Indranila Mani dasa (ex-Ignacio González) from Valparaíso, Chile.

Let me start asking for your forgiveness. . . . 
. . . Indranila Mani dasa

P.S: Please Gurudeva, don´t publish this letter in the blog. Just because . . .

HpS - ASA - Jaya! AGTSP Very nice to hear from you. You should have written, called us, sooner as you had different problems. Maybe we could have helped. In general, we have to publish all letters that we read from girls because we are Sannyasis. From guys, we can be a little more liberal and just put in ". . ." for the more individual stuff. If someone wants us to not Publish a Letter then they should make that declaration BEFORE they letter rather than after. Then we have the option of not publishing and also NOT READING it.

Jaya! Also, we just can't handle individual letters in much detail. Our eyes won't handle it.

In general, also, let me say that 90% of the people reading this Blog have problems just like you, so there is not too much detail that we can't discuss here, among friends. Yes, some very particular details, let's exchange e-mails, but that is so, so, so, so very hard for us.

In general (as your General):
1. 99% of the world's population has no resort other than sex, drugs and movies. So as we have Srila Prabhupada in our perspective at all we are doing very well.
The SB is full of Fall-downs. Srila Vyasadeva fell down. The Praceta's fells down. Chayavana Muni fell-down. However, the reality is that we are immortal. You can't kill your soul. You will come back again and again.  Yes, in the beginning it is not unnatural to have robust moral falldowns. Later there are subtle falldowns. Even to want to not serve Krsna with intense spontanseous love is enough to make us fall-down from Mathura to Ayodhya.

2. How do we get back up?
We must learn from the failures then they are GOOD!.
We must be everyone's well-wisher, even those who have "hurt us".
Then it all becomes easy. We chant as much as we can.
We fix a certain number of rounds to do daily for the next ________ week or weeks and do them! Something we know we can do. Maybe we are so twerked out that all we can do is one round once a year on Janmastami and Gaura-purnima, but do something you really know you can do for afixed time and see the result.

Bong!     Do we want out?

Bong!   Bing!  Bang!  Japa, reading, hanging out with devotees...  Realize that our problems are NOT small problems. What we are going through is very much between me and Krsna: Family, friends, society, they are never going to be clear relations, NEVER, until I have some reasonable idea about who am I and who is Krsna (Prabhupada ISKCON...).

O.K? Give us some thoughts we can discuss here. Look at the discussions with others. We very much want your association