bhakta from India in need of your mercy and shelter

9 years, 7 months ago by RiturajMajumder in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krisna Maharaj Please accept my dandavat pranam All glories to Srila prabhupada

All glories to you. Maharaj please accept my humble pranam.

Maharaj i beg you to please give me shelter of your lotus feet and accept me as your future disciple.

Please allow me to tell you about myself . I am Rituraj Majumder, 22 year old bengali medical student (MBBS) from shillong , India. I am basically from duliajan , assam. During my high school in 2010 i accidently came in contact with Srila prabhupada's book hare krisna challenge and perfect question and perfect answer. After reading them and visiting ISKCON Guwahati which is one night journey from my place I felt peace and a deep emotion in my heart.

The deities of sri Rukmini Krisna had captured my heart. Under the guidance of a youth councellor i started following the regulative principles and chanting some rounds. Then i took admission in medical school in august 2010 .Till 2012 january i had followed all the rules and regulations and chanted few rounds but on reading few articles about ISKCON Guru falldowns and child molestation inside gurukula I was mentally disturbed. Instead of asking my councellor or talking about it to senior devotees i just felt sad and gradually stopped following the regulative principles . Although i had full faith in krisna and still read srila prabhupada books. But i prayed that krisna help me out. In august 2013 i got a call from ISKCON Guwahati out of blue with a invitation to janmastami mahotsav.

I saw it as a sign and visited guwahati. That janmastami Krisna cleared all my doubts through a senior devotee who told me that the site where i had read the articles was from akshaypatra who wanted to defame ISKCON Gurus and that they propagated ritwik diksha which was not according to srila prabhupada and sastra. My faith was restored that janmastami. Then in september 2013 ISKCON Shillong was opened.

I started associating with senior devotees and under their guidance started chanting 16 rounds and follwing the regulative principles. I went to the temple as often as possible sometimes stayed the night and participated in mangal arati and other festivals like govardhan puja , tulsi saligram vivah etc. My main service was to help the pujari h.g yamunajivan das and washing utensils and sometimes the temple floor. In december 2013 i came in contact with your disciple H.G.Vishnupriya mataji and her husband H.G.Kamajit prabhu from manipur whom you had initiated in tripura.

After hearing from them about you, reading about you and hearing your classes over youtube i felt like i have found my guru maharaj. I contacted H.G.Haridas das prabhu ( H.H. Swarup damodar swami maharaj disciple) who told me that if i follow all the rules and chant 16 rounds for a year he will recomend me to you when you come to India next gaura purnima in 2015. From your classes and anjana suta academy slides i have understood that you want your disciples to wake up early in brama murhata and chant good enthusiastic 16 rounds. Now i am getting up early and chanting my rounds .sometimes i fail to get up but i am trying my level best. I offer my breakfast to krisna and take it as prasadam but because i stay inside hostel and i have classes whole day from 8am to 4 pm i am not able to offer lunch to krisna due to lack of time. But i am trying . I try to cook simple things and offer but sometimes its too difficult to manage time so i eat in hostel mess. Currently i am reading upadesamrita along with your notes from ASA and the classes that you had given in radhadesh (iskcon desire tree audio) . Maharaj will you please accept me as your future disciple and give me shelter at your lotus feet . I promise to improve. I am very fallen but i still beg you to accept me. I contacted your disciple H.G.Prahalad Narshimha prabhu and he adviced me to write to you and explain myself to you. I really appologise for this long letter and for taking so much of your valuable time. Please forgive me because i lack the manners required to write to a guru and a sanyasi . Please forgive me if i have offended you by writing this letter. Once again sorry for the lenghty letter. I hope that you will accept me as your future disciple . Begging for your mercy. Your servant Rituraj Majumder Shillong P.S. Vishnupriya mataji and kamajit prabhu sent their dandavat pranam at your lotus feet. They are enquiring about your health and hope that you are in good health . They also request you to visit India . They are eagerly waiting for your arrival .

HpS - ASA - Jaya! AGTSP paoho. We are old and may leave this body before we get to India, but we are have heartfelt connection with you even before we meet. So nice to hear from you. 99.9999999999% of the good qualities that you see in us are from Srila Prabhupada.
Of course, continue to take shelte of him as you are. This is his movement. Supersoul informs him of people and under his direction his servants give his shelter etc.
It certainly seems that you can be initiated as soon as Swami Hari-dasa recommends you and there is a letter from local Temple President.
Of course, why not take formal initiation from local ISKCON Guru. Certainly he would be very happy that we are acting as Siksa guru. Then you would be able to consult with Diksa guru very conveniently.