Pigsty

5 years, 1 month ago by Bhakta Reilly in Personal Sadhana Reports

Haribol Hanumat Presaka Swami Maharaja,
Please let me offer my obeisances to your lotus feet,

    HpS - ASA -- AGTSP!  We ain't got lotus feet. We are still trying perfection to reach. Maybe got potatoe flower feet heading to apple blossom feet! <img alt="devil" height="23" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" />
 

all glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I have not sent a letter in a long time. Today is the first in many months I did my 16 rounds. It feels like a long time, Maharaja, I vowed to you last year that I would follow 16-4 until July 4th of this year and I admit that I have failed in my efforts. Maybe it was because of all the things happening in my family or perhaps I did not desire to fulfill that vow to you enough. However I would humbly apoligize for my failure and ask if I may renew my vow of 16-4 again until July 4th of next year in order to please you.

     HpS - ASA ---  <img alt="devil" height="23" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" /> Let's get more practical here in the fore-front. Four principles and four rounds a day until July 31st. O.K? If you do more report it!!

I was very happy to attend Ratha-Yatra here in Boise with the temple, I feel I have not been getting as much association as I should with the devotees. The changes of turning 18, getting a first job, attending college, applying for financial aid and learning to drive have been alot on this plate.

          ASA - A lot for two plates!

I am still residing with my grandparents as of now. I hope I will one day be able to move closer to downtown temple and associate daily with the devotees.

I wanted to say that my first job, I thought was somewhat vegeterian but I've discovered (and sadly had to sell) some fish and egg related products. I do not know if you would approve.. But my family pressures me to get any kind of work experience and income possible and it seemed like the best I could scrape up without working in a diner.

                  HpS - Well, at least its not meat, no! Of course, keep looking for completely clean work. There IS Karma for selling eggs!!

I'm hoping the experience will let me move to something better later on.

I've decided to start again at devotional life but in a (hopefully) different attitude towards it. Rather than following false "guru's" and "disciples" of H.D.G. AC Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada; and though I have commited countless horrible mistakes and sins in my lifetime that I will never forgive myself; knowing that real love is selfless and unconditional; I have seen from the mercy of Mayapur-Dhama how life is like there and would like to dedicate myself towards serving the devotees and learning to practice medicine as a physician. I hope every day I can come closer to this desire and less from all of my negative/materialistic habits and demeanors. To be the servant of the servants, servants, servants... feet.

I apoligize for any offenses I've made to you physically or mentally and I hope this will meet you in good health. Thank you for all your guidance maharaja. If you will accept my vow of renewal I will do my best to remember my 16-4 every day.

your fallen servant,

Reilly G

        HpS  - ASA - We will be in Boise for Balarama Purnima and the weeek after. Look at the ASA Calendar!  4-4 until July 31st, no?!  <img alt="devil" height="23" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" /><img alt="devil" height="23" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" /><img alt="devil" height="23" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" /><img alt="devil" height="23" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" />