Hare Krsna Dear Maharaja,
All glories to Sri Sri Gaura Nitai
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
Please accept my humble obeisances.
Today in japa joe, you made me remember about my job and your instruction about that. I'll leave this job but I wanted to travel at the end of the year. Although I'm not very fond of plans because always every things changes (Krsna controls all), I was thinking about to stay in this job until then to save money, can travel and resign at year-end. Then I would go to India for 2 or 3 months, would go to New Zealand to visit my sister and working for a few months to save money for go to Australia. Also I want to know the temples there. I had never travelled so far alone, but I think I have to do now. All this is just an idea at the moment because I would like to know what do you think about this. It came to my mind because I need to go to India some day and visit my sister too.. so I could take advantage to visit other temples too.
Maybe this is the moment... or maybe it is just my mind that makes me think that is a necessity for me... or maybe it is about to gratify my senses.. I don't know...
HpS - AGTSP. If you have to visit your sister, then you have to go. Visiting India is like visiting Europe. Is big place. We have some contacts in some places but is not a place for a lady to travel alone, is 3-times worse than going to Paris alone.
On the other hand, I'm striving to chant my japa in my job and read a little bit. And when I come back home at 5 or 6 am, sometimes I try to finish my beads and doing mangala aratik before go to sleep.
In my free days I stay in the temple to sleep, going to the program and doing service (the best days of my week, finishing very tired but happy). So Im trying to organize my schedules for the moment to do all... Anyway it is temporary...
About my refugee, still waiting Maha Hari Das's recommendation letter...
Thinking in this verse (BG 18.66) "Abandon all varieties of religion and just surrender unto Me. I shall deliver you from all sinful reactions. Do not fear."and which Prabhupada said "Anything that does not lead to the perfectional stage of Kṛṣṇa consciousness should be avoided". Surrender is so hard. I don't know how and if I will be able to do it in this life. How can we surrender unto Krsna in this era? What means exactly surrender? I feel sure about the process of Krsna conscience but while I can't control my mind, she will always make me doubt about myself, about the others, about all!
Sorry for my bad english and my long letter.
Rama Navami pictures with monkeys for you .u.
Hare Krsna, Hare Rama!
your servant,
Bhaktin Belén.
HpS - ASA -- You seem to be doing pretty well. There is a lot of progress to make. Read the Adau sraddha text in BG 4.10 purport. Same thing is paraphrased in NOI 7, no?
YOu can see the steps.
Surrender means to hear honestly from the Acharya Srila Prabhupada about what is our material situation. Jaya!
Thank you for Monkeys!
