Very late since I did not have a computer and in my beloved Radha Kunda there is not even one internet site, I send my offering.

om ajñana timirandhasya jñañjana salakaya

caksur unmilitan yena tasmai sri gurave namah

I offer my respectful obeisances unto my spiritual master, who has opened my eyes, which were blinded by the darkness of ignorance, with the torchlight of knowledge.

My dear guruji:

I have confirmed again this year that everything, except for the relationship between the spiritual master and the disciple is temporary in the material world.

I have recently suffer the lost of one of my brothers, which is very painful, and once again, I asked Krsna why we have to get attachment to our family members, if there will be one day when we do not see them anymore, I think I will never understand this.

Although I have heard that beautiful verse 2.13 from Bhagavad Gita:

“dehino ‘smin yatha dehe

yaumaram yauvanam jara

Tatha dehantara praptir

Dhiras tatra na muhyati

As the embodied soul continually passes, in this body, from boyhood to youth to old age, the soul similarly passes into another body at death. The self- realized soul is not bewildered by such a change.”

But I am not a self realized soul, so it has been very difficult for me to assimilate that I will never see him again or heard his voice or read his mails.

                     HpS - AGTSP. Paoho. Why not? Krsna is controlling everything. He can very easily have you meetin in dreams.

I have also heard this year about the falling down of one of my dearest and most admired guru in Iskcon and lived the suffering of all his disciples and I also asked Krsna why do things like this can happen, how can maya be so powerful, that even that kind of high devotees can fall down, and so, what can expect some little devotes like myself.

                    HpS - Is Maha-nidhi Swami??? I heard that he said that it was false propaganda from some mad disciples. In any case, the Srimad Bhagavatam is FULL of fall-downs (and get ups). So we learn from hearing and seeing and experiencing. But we learn and we go ahead and Krsna makes us more and more purified each day.

And for both subjects I have no answer yet, so please, my dear guruji, teach me how to manage this kind of things and be only engaged in serving Radha and Krsna, no matter that the world surrounding us is so flickering, like our own minds.

And finally, my computer got damaged, so I could not be able to be in contact with you almost all year long, which is something very important for me, and all my Srila Prabhupada´s library is gone so I will have to start again gathering all this information.

The only thing that maintains me with the feet on the earth is to know that you are always taking care of us, your disciples and that this relationship is eternal, as some scriptures states:

“… but the bona fide spiritual master, as the representative of the Lord, is the eternal father because the spiritual master has the responsibility to lead the disciple to spiritual salvation as the ultimate goal of life.

Srimad Bhagavatam, 3.5.7 purport”

“The guru disciple relationship is eternal. If both maintain their pure position and are bona fide, their eternal relationship is never jeopardized.

Sri Harinama cintamani. Chapter 6.”

No matter how many difficulties maya brings to us in this material world, I think that the only important thing is to be engaged in the service to Radhe  Syam, that is what I feel, but sometimes, very often, my mind goes mad and engages only in the problems of the material world, so please, my dear guruji,  help me to understand what is the real object of life and how I can achieve it, help me to be able to control my senses and my flickering mind and think only that our ultimate goal is to go back to life, back to Godhead and help me to get attachment to the holy name and to chant with more attention and devotion, I am very confident that only you can help me.

As Srila Prabhupada said in the purport of Cc Adi lila 2.5 “one who has faith in his spiritual master actually receives transcendental instruction and as his attachment for material life slackens, he is able to advance on the spiritual path”.

Please be merciful to me and help me to remember the beautiful names, forms and pastimes of Radha-Krsna all the time.

This is my humble request for you, I know that only you can help me to surpass all these material entanglements.

Your (trying to be humble) servant

Tungavidya dd

HpS - Ha!  Ha!  Ha!   If you can live in Radha kunda for even one night you are wonderful. Why are you complaining. Krsna is doing all this so you can become detached. He will always make the material world a crazy thing until we are ready to serve Him. Then He will nake it Vaikuntha.

Just get even one of Prabhupada's books and read it again and again. All your answers will be there. We get to India the 11th and Vraja the 25th. We hope to go to Radha kunda. 28th we go to Dehli for short trip back to USA. We think of you often and are very happy when we can get any news.

Dead, Fall-down. All connected to Krsna.