AGTSP
paoho
6.15PM. The sun sets at 4.30PM now and so it is kind of depressing in the evening. Also, we are a Sannyasi so we are alone a lot and have to work alone like Hanuman looking wof Sita alone.
It can become very intense, depressing, causing doubt, but also can get a lot done this way.
We are O.K. We will put a letter we wrote Dr. Samaresh after this. It gives some perspective on our situation. Answered about five letters. Very nice. Had a hellish fight with the Money Gram people. They decided that Arya-srestha das, Karuna-shakti devi dasi
and I were like drug dealers and thus they would not transfer the money we are trying to send for M. Jambavati's auto-biography and dental surgery. Some went. It is funny. We will try to send another way.
At the time of death we become very morose and the only enthusiasm is our transcendental relation with Krsna, and that can be like the sun!
The letter to Dr. Samaresh explains the general challenges and so far we are doing well adjusting our work load and then we can more easily see what Krsna wants.
O.K. Post that letter and then maybe go get the Money Gram refund and then go to NGD's and Mother Matsya and Abhiseka's and Radha-Natabara's Ashrama, and go for our 44.5 minute evening, night-time walk. Is down to freezing a night now. We got our warm jacket from Tandavika's house. We offer Lord Nrsmhadeva a blend of two bananas, apple juice and some p-nut butter for breakfast, and his kitri of of green split peas and rice and potatoes and carrots and celery with ghee and salt for lunch.
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