Hare Krsna Maharaj,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
This small jiva is very grateful to hear the news of your merciful response to his previous letter regarding having to leave the morning program during japa. All glories to your merciful tolerance of his faults.
I would like to give a little history of my sadhana. I received books 10-1/2 years ago and immediately accepted everything Srila Prabhupada stated in them,
ASA - Jaya!
.... became vegetarian in a week, and started working my way up in chanting rounds gradually. I had been wanting and attempting gradually to become vegetarian for two years at that point, and had an interest in the vedas previous to receiving books. A year later I began making the hour drive to Gita Nagari every weekend and every week that I could while attending college, and attending a Friday nama hatta home program each week. I very much enjoy the company of Sri Sri Radha Damodara, and long for the sight of their lotus feet nearly every day.
These 10+ years have had many ups and downs in my sadhana, and I had not been chanting the whole time but had done so for most of this time. About 3 months ago came the conclusion of a 5 year marriage with yajna in the temple room but not before Lord Damodara. We had met shortly after I came to Krsna consciousness online. I still tried to repair it since those 3 months, but it did not work out, as we have different paths.
I now can devote much more of my time and activities that are not spent at work on my personal sadhana and a tiny bit of unqualified service at Sri Sri Radha Govinda Mandir. I become much too depressed to unallowable and dangerous levels when my mind is not fixed on the lotus feet of Radha-Krishna for anything otherwise, and I now realize this more fully.
It is now my hope that somehow, this ass can become less of a rascal enough to please you and the feet of Lord Sri Damodara in due time, and learn to listen to Krsna's guiding hand instead of my own foolish mind, to allow him to somehow pull me out of this engrossed state in the bodily conception of life.
Hoping to become your servant,
Bhakta David II
HpS - ASA - is an honor to hear your history. who do Radha Damodara keep as Their associates?
