Dear Hanumatpresaka Swami,

Please accept my respectful obeisances,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

Sorry for i'm getting back to You so late.
I think of You and your advices everyday and i wanted to write to You so many times but nowadays my life is complicated and everything changes in every minute so i didn't know what can i post.

                 HpS - Jaya!   Vrndavana Dhama!

My spiritual life is ok. I get up 3 am, chant 20 rounds and read 1 hour in the morning and few months ago i started to chant 4 extra rounds in the afternoon. It helps me a lot and gives me strenght.
My material life is full with miseries.

            HpS - We would never expect you to say, "My material life is full of happiness"!  Physical life may be happy if we connect to the King of Happiness, but never Material Life, no?

It seems we don't go back to England nowadays because the circumstances changed there and here also.
Is it Krsna's plan or i have too big attachment to leave for abroad i don't know...
In our yatra so many things happened. There are good and bad changes also.
Lots of nice devotee left for abroad so the church tries to keep everybody here.
We don't have problems with the devotees but  it's very hard to maintain ourselves here because the average salaries are very low but the taxes are very high due to the Hungarian financial crisis. So we have to work very hard to pay ourselves, more than in England or any other western countries.
But Krsna is God and He will take care of everybody.
Nowadays whatever i want always the opposite of it will happen. But my desire is to become a pure devotee and it's not an easy task.

Maharaja, thanks for your time and help in Barcelona again. I was totally stupid there just as usual and i couldn't hear what you wanted to tell me but nowadays i think about it a lot and realized you always talk about very important things.

Now i understood how stupid i'm. I wanted to find a perfect spiritual master but i'm not so serious candidate and don't have important questions. I think myself too clever and want to do what i want and i see the negative sides of everything. I'm useless but by your mercy i hope once i can make progress and i can become a devotee.

Thank you very much for your nice association.
Trying to be your servant,
Sri Radhe devi dasi

               HpS - ASA -  But you have a very nice husband (for Kali-yuga (Ha, Ha, Ha)).  I think the main thing is to understand that you are not some kind of special person and there are many people with uncomplicated happy lives.    EVERYONE IN THE WORLD TODAY HAS COMPLICATED UNHAPPY LIVES. Drug Kings, President Obama.  Only hope is to be a devotee and realize that Krsna is in control and that ulitmately He wants to kill us.  Got that!!!   Krsna WANTS TO KILL you  (and me and...).   O.K.   but He wants to do it in just the right way.  So try to understand and die a proper death, no?   That's the first thing He wants.   Then....