Hare Krishna Dear Guru maharaj

Please accept my humble obesciences, all glories to Srila Prabhupad.

I think, there is something in me which doesnt want me to proclaim that I am religious. Part of it is the low confidence level I have about myself and if I talk something foolish or if I do any mistakes then devotees who are following will get bad name. Also, As I am very fickle minded and not being very determined about myself and I fear that I might fall down and start eating onion again. 

Lately I have been successfull in not eating Onion and Garlic, but that tendency to go with the flow is there. I would like to follow the principles for 5 months and 16 days more and want to request you to accept me as a formal aspirant for initiation.

your aspiring servant

Nataraj

                HpS - ASA - AGTSP...  Paoho.  You make your "Stupid Ass", body, avoid onion and garlic for five months and tell anybody who asks that it is very dificult for your body.  Your doing Yoga for your health and giving up onion and garlic is important for any real yogi.

Then if you can follow for six months and then have the honest determination to follow forever, you can become Aspirant.  IN your case this will be like eating three atomic bombs. Stick with it.  There has been nothing but benefit by doing these austerities so far.  Bigger and better rewards await you!