Hare Krishna Dear guru maharaj

Please accept my humble obesciences. All glories to Srila Prabhupad. 

I am in two minds maharaj, one side there is a stong desire to take formal initiation and another side I am worried about fall down after taking initiation. I am able to curb the Onion and Garlic right now, but in case after couple of years if i fall down that, Is'nt it  more sinfull then failure at this time.

Please guide me maharaj

your aspiring servant

Nataraj

            HpS - ASA - AGTSP!!  In NOI (3 I think) Prabhupada comments that devotional service is not a matter of sentimental speculation or imaginative ecstacy, but practical activity in the foreground of spiritual life. So, we make a practical investigation: Will this bridge hold up?  Yes, under expected conditions.

Of course, if there is an earthquake and one end of the bridge falls into the Pacific Ocean then no one criticizes the bridge maker for insufficient bridge.  If you test yourself under basic conditions and you can follow now, then you are ready for formal initiation.  You are not responsible for un-predictable situations.