Hare Krishna dear guru maharaj

Please accept my humble obesciences. All glories to Srila Prabhupad.

Thank you for your kind response and taking time to answer my questions and helping me. I think I dont have a determination or my mind works in two opposite directions. Once I make a determination, I can stick to it for couple of hours to couple of days. After it goes and I do the same mistake again and fall back into old food habits. 

I would like to be associated with you.

your servant

Nataraj

         HpS - ASA -    AGTSP    paoho.   Srila Prabhupada said that his idea was that first he should acquire money and then preach and Krsna's idea was that he sould preach and the money would come.  He said that it was an "old argument" between him and Krsna, and in the end Krsna won.      Ha!     Ha!                Ha!

              We ALL have specific obstacles.  For one it is sex, another power, another brandy, another garlic, another football, another clothes .....      This is your particular obstacle.   This is the potency of the Mantra.  You know you should not take some substance.  You can't   ...   you??   We!   know we can't control it.  So....  all the time you are taking it, all the time you are experiencing the reaction, just chant, pray, and then you will be able to see the illicit, stupid attachment in deeper and deeper perspective and it the you will give it up automatically.

This is not a small challenge.

This may go all the way back to the reason you left Goloka!!!              Go ahead with your battle.  It gives us strength to fight with our attachments!!