Aspiring to become useful to the guru

10 years, 11 months ago by aja.govinda in Personal Sadhana Reports
Dear Guru Maharaja:
 
Please accept my most humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and your dedication to the mission of starting the ground-breaking largest online distance education of Bhakti-Shastri and Bhakti-Vaibhava in service to His Divine Grace.
 
By the power of your instruction, I am staying in Vrindavan and strictly following the four principles, going to the temple to chant japa before sringar arati, chanting 16 rounds, attending sringar-arati, Guru-puja, Gaura arati in the evening, and listening Bhagavatam and Bhagavad-gita classes. Yesterday morning in the ISKCON Vrindavan Krishna-Balaram temple when I saw the brahmacaris dancing for Srila Prabhupada's utsav-murti's daily procession around the temple, I thought that this ISKCON morning program (especially sringar-arati of Vrindavan and Guru-puja) never becomes old and you never feel that this is something I already did. The devotees here daily feel transcendental bliss upon attending these morning programs established by His Divine Grace.
 
Dear Maharaja, I realize the power of your tolerance that you allowed a sinner like me to accompany you on your travels. I need to learn to follow your strict example of full Krsna consciousness. I need to rectify my offensive consciousness so that I am a help to Guru and parampara rather than a useless fellow. I need to give up my arrogance and foolishness. I need to take advantage of your mercifully extending your association through the online Bhakti-Vaibhava. My education is worthless without spiritual education. I can only hope and pray that my Oxford PhD can be useful in Krsna-conscious science / academic outreach. My field has changed from heart research to DNA / RNA in connection with immunology (in particular my post-doc research is on how our immune system cells recognize the DNA of viruses). I hope to use this field in scientifically showing that life comes from life, specifically that DNA is not the sole cause of life but that DNA is a biological pattern imprinted by consciousness. I am most inspired by scientists as yourself, Sadaputa Prabhu, and HH Bhakti-svarupa Damodara Swami. When you explain sankhya, it becomes clear that mind is superior to and the origin of matter.
 
Due to my offenses unto your holiness and to the Vaishnavas, I am destined for the worst hell. Though I do not deserve it, I can only beg your mercy to allow me some service to your holiness so I may purify my existence. I gained some experience in
book editing and publication while working on HH Lokanatha Swami's Samskrta-Uccarana: A Comprehensive Guide to Sanskrit Pronunciation. I pray that if you consider me worthy, and as you suggested some time back, I may assist in editing and formatting for publication the Bhakti-shastri and Bhakti-vaibhava Pada-padma manuals for the Anjana Suta Academy. I could share my screen with you over skype every weekend to take your advice on the progress once both your Holiness and I am in the USA. However, you and Paramatma know what is best for me and how to engage my skills best in Srila Prabhupada's service. I pray that I may serve you in Murfreesboro, Tennessee as it is not too far from New Orleans where I will be staying starting July. I know you are extremely busy Maharaja, but your mind and intelligence has so much knowledge on the Vedas that even your single word can give direction to me.
 
Asking for your forgiveness and opportunity for some small service unto you,
Aja Govinda Dasa
              HpS - ASA -  Jaya!!!!   AgtSP.   paoho.  Is soooo nice to be able to read and comment on your Letters to the Editor/Blog....   We discussed a little of this in separate letter to the Secret Disciple Address, but basically, any problems you have caused for us have been far, far smaller than then problems we have caused for Srila Prabhupada.  The reward for your stupid activities is that you will have stupid disciples that will cause you problems just like you caused your parents.  Haw!    Haw!!  Ha-Ray!
    'Even fleas have little fleas that bite them', William Blake.
So,   please see the news here and in the Kapi Dhvaja and then we can talk a lot when we get to USA.  We hope your therapy is going well!!!!                  There is no teacher like Vrndavana Dhama!