Hare Krishna !

11 years, 4 months ago by Bhaktin Camila R. in Personal Sadhana Reports

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Camila <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/36.gif" title="" />, 19 years old, student of Social Work, Santiago, Chile.  

PAMHO !  ! PAMHO ! ! PAMHO !! <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/04.gif" title="" />

4 Principles and 16 rounds. 

Hare Krishna dear Maharaj, since u'been gone I feel so much enthusiasm w/my spiritual life, You reminded me of who I really am, an eternal servant of Krishna. I'm very grateful to you, thanks you very much. You are a great inspiration to me, I hope someday to serve you, and continue to do in life after life. 

Here(Chile), in Govardhan's day, I asked if I could take refuge in you, we where with Prabhu Patrak Das, and Bhaktin Andrea, and you told me that it was okay, and "yes", and I had to write continuously on the blog, so we can have a formal relation. One day before you will travel to Peru, Prabhu Om Kesavaya Das told me that I was no longer a refugee in you, he doesn't tell me about the reasons of that, for many days i was very bad, very sad, trying to understand what happens... I realized that Krishna does this, he knows why he does things, and actually, I'm not one to question the decisions of You Maharaj, or the temple authorities, Krishna acts and I can only surrender to his will.
But i have to say you, that I can not understand how the Prabhu Om Kesavaya Das, told me things, because something that is so important to me,  has told me in the temple hall, unprepared, so arrogant, and telling that I was not refugee and could not call you "Guru Maharaj", without concise arguments to understand what had happened. It is for this reason that I was so affected, and I've taken so long to assimilate it, makes me very sad the way I was told this.  It is the messenger that has produced me this upset, but not the message. 
I talked with the president of the Temple, Prabhu Amara Gouranga Das, and he told me that the temple recomended me for refuge....so clearly i don't understand what happened...so i'm asking you that if you can explain me what happened, I'm prepared to receive any answer, i'm just confused, and I just want to know what happened...
 

Please excuse me if I have committed any offense, not my intention<img alt="frown" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/confused_smile.gif" title="frown" /> . I think it is right to tell you what happens. 
And please excuse me for my terrible English, and do you read this letter...I do not want to bother you, I know you must be very busy with projects of NIOS & ASA.

Please accept my most humble obeisances at your lotus feet. <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/40.gif" title="" />

Hoping to serve you, your dumb servant Bhaktin Camila R. <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/38.gif" title="" /><img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/36.gif" title="" />

HpS - ASA - Jaya!   AgtSP!   Paoho.      We got notification that Nimai Das sent a copy of this letter to us at the Yahoo Group.  We were only using that until the Blog was fixed. Now it is fixed so we are stopping using the Yahoo Group for letters.  Back to the Blog.

This seems to be a common test that Krsna gives people. Almost the same thing happened to me when I went to the Temple in San Francisco the first time. So I went back out to my car and took shelter of Srila Prabhupada's KRSNA book and practically the first thing I read was, "One should not be discouraged if there are obstacles in the path of devotional service in the beginning. One should go ahead with enthusiasm and everything will be successful."

So I went back to the Temple and tried again and was great experience.

When the list of Candidates for being Aspirants and Initiation was made up there was not proper evaluation by the ISKCON standard. I can't remember the details but I think it was communicated to us that although you were doing very well, you had not been chanting sixteen rounds a day and following full program for six months.

Is that a fact?

If so, that is the formality that we have to accomplish.

For how many months have you been chanting 16-enthusiastic rounds and following the 4-principles strictly and keeping regular morning program and participating in the Sankirtana of Lord Caitanya in ISKCON?

   Booop!     It is a simple clear standard, but it is actually very personal. It is a contract that Srila Prabhupada made for us with the Son of Maharaja Nanda

O.K.   We wait with great expectations for your answer!