Hare Krishna Maharaja, please kindly accept my most humble obeisances; All glories to Srila Prabhupada.  We are all anticipating your arrival here in Boise next month. 

It so happens that on the day that you are scheduled to arrive, Jan. 21, that day happens to be inauspicious: It's my birthday, and I will be turning 62. 

I have already filed for Social Security retirement, but my wife would have to wait another 11 years before she can retire.  Things have been going south for us for the last 6 months or so, in terms of economics.  I have been mostly out of work; now my wife is mostly out of work; The tenants that we had have moved out and it has become near imppossible to replace them with new tenants who are willing to live with older people who also happen to be vegetarains and Hare Krishna's to boot.  If we don't make a decision soon and things don't change for the better in terms of employment, we be in serious dire straights. 

Now that you have a graphic update, I can tell you that we have decided that it is time to once again become devotees.  We are sick and tired of begging for jobs, being rejected because of gender, age and religious discrimination.  We are seriously talking about sellling the house, and even moving out of the country, but we are scared because all of this is new to us, and we don't know where to go, what to do and what we will find after we move; Also we know that by selling and moving we lose whatever so called security we have and are at the mercy of whatever community we find ourselves in. 

I am hoping to take shelter of your guidance.  We are both thinking of perhaps living in South America somewhere.  There is an ad in Chakra about devotees living in Guyana, and we have responded.  So far, we are awaiting to talk to the devotees on Skype so that a relationship can begin.  It's is not that we have decided to live there; Simply we are investigating is all.  But I would like to know if we have your blessings, and if you ever make any visits to Guyana.  If you don't, but you give us your blessings, then perhaps we could engage in some form of preaching that would attract your association-should we decide to live there.   

There is more to say, but I was hoping to have some private moments to say these things to you when you arrive.  If this is acceptable to you that would be wonderfully helpful and appreciated.  I know that I am not a surrendered soul by nature, but I have no hope but to try, and you have been most merciful to us that it is only natural that we both turn to you for guidance on this matter.

Your lowly servant,

Balabhadra dasa

HpS - AGTSP  pamho.   We may all die of starvation! Did we ever think otherwise?   Old age is a kind of starvation, so it's going to happen one way or another, no?
What I have understood is, "don't leave, don't deviate". Whatever service you KNOW you should do, then do it. If it is only 16/4/mangala arati and SB, then do it. If you know more. Then do it. Don't try to adjust things too much by mental speculation. Some is O.K. but mostly is listeneing to what Krsna is planning.
Draupadi didn't understand Krsna's plan, but she was convinced that there was a plan. If she knew the plan she may have flipped out and run away.

She was the cause of the death of 640,000,000 people. Maybe better not to know what is the plan!    Yesssss, we can meet in Boise.... Five weeks from today!!