From my monkey heart

11 years, 4 months ago by candra108_mukhi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva:

AGTSP ¡¡¡
PAOHO ¡¡¡¡

At this moment U are at the airport U lost your flight to Ecuador ¡¡¡

I just wanted to tell U honestly that since I returned to Chile I was not feeling so well, I do not if it is stress, boredom, maya , uff I do not know..  I feel dissapointed about one friend also maybe is that ¡¡¡¡

MY rounds aren't so good as they were before 12:30 am (chile - lima) was too much for me so there were some days that I did not attend japa joe and today I just fall asleep while chanting ¡¡¡ I was listening to namacarya and then I lost my consciousness I woke up for mangal artik buuuuuuuuuu  Maybe it is the stress for not seeing Gaura Nitay for long time .... many things to do ..... ufff I am feeling tired really tired I fall asleep in the busses ummm I do not know why 

I do not have the same enthusiasm as before so yes I know that I can find it in my intelligence the one that  not too much jeje 

Priorities.. yes I have to put my priorities first... It is an art how to handle the time sometimes I do not have enough time to do anything umm that is maya ¡¡¡

so sorry GM for this report is not so good but I am trying to be honest and to take shelter in Srila PRabhupada through your very good self ¡¡¡¡

The sun is shinning ¡¡¡¡ I am going to chosica today full service the whole day and if I have your mercy I may see Gaura Nitay and the welcome back party  for Them will be next sunday it was supposed to be this sunday but the deities aren't ready :(

I will pray and talk to Radharani to help me. She is really sweet and patient with us ... I was having dreams with Gaura Nitay just as Gaura Gadadhara They were OK They look as the way I knew Them... 

Thanks for listening and so so sorry for bothering U with our minds and problems ......... I just want to be a useful tool for Your eternal sankirtan to Srila Prabhupada ¡¡¡ 

a question .. our name has an influence on us?? how strong?? candramukhi?? candra = mind

I am sometimes too mental 

Thanks Gurudeva what would have happened with your flight??? anyway Have a very nice trip ¡¡¡¡

Trying to be your disciple

Candramonkey dd

             HpS - ASA ----  Jaya!   AGTSP    pfanrh.    Be careful!            The SB is full of stories of fall downs!     It is there to warn us of every situation, no?    Then we can avoid them all and Go-to-Goloka, Moooo!          You have a very good chance to get there even in this life!           This year!                    ....     

Our name can be very significant or just a nice handle for the Spiritual Master and Disciple to know each other.     Too mental is better than too physical, but , yes, we have to be moon beams of Krsna-candra!