Hare Krsna Oh Holy Sage!!
You have been delivering many fallen souls in all over the earth. Working day and night just to reach out to more and more people. You are compassionate on others, and strict on yourself. We may have joked with you according to our level. Please forgive us for our grave offences we have done against you.

        HpS - ASA -  AGTSP!!!       You see only the good qualities in people and magnify them. We have also been attached to reading Sherlock Holmes stories in the name of "World Classical Literature".

...we have troubled you a lot over blog, skype and in person. But we may not have capacity to have any other fruitful relation with you. We may be taking advantage of your tolerance , but that is not our intent, but sort of conditioning.

Oh travelling preacher. we write to you in great trouble we have in heart. Please forward this message to Supreme Lord. We live in this kaliyuga were things are detoriating we can feel that our bodliy and mental health is taking toll. we are in grhastjha asrama where we dont have support or reminders of execution of KC. Our mind is un-controlled intelligence is weak. Jaundiced by avidya we dont relish holy name.
 

We are becoming conscious that death is coming closer every second, ulitmately we have to die. We know we can only attain perfection be mercy of lord. Karma-jnana-dhyana-bhakti, 9 stages of bhakti.. all this science esp which tells us stages of perfection.. questions us can we attain them in this life time. what if we dont!!! we have not even begun!! mercy is dependent on our endeavor , we feel we lack that endeavor..

not able to process is concern. but before process comes association. We are so rascal that we are very bad at relations- very low on emotions, we can not maintain relationships. we can not hope you to micromanage... but we are saying all this  to express our momentary seriousness and saneness... hope super soul -- dadati buddhi yogam to us.

our only refuge is holy name, all we can do is chant as much as we can, chant internally or externally work or no work... but dont know how much is practical... we want to write more...but we rest...can you give us some prescription out of your compassion on rascal like us....
regards,
insignificant acquitance.
  Horse Pradhana.

                  HpS - ASA --  AGTSP!!!!    BG 2.41 or so...  Nehabikramo naso sti....  on this path there is no loss or diminuition.   Even the Gopis feel that they are rascals who can't execute real Bhakti. Objectively you are in a difficult situation, but it could be worse. You could be in the West where animal slaughter and multiple "wives" is a common practice. You could have never come in contact with Srila Prabhupada nor his movement nor his other aspirants.  So, thing is to set some goal: eg. on Sunday stop and think, this week I will chant x-number of rounds every day.      Set a practical standard and then do it.  Also, associate like this in a regulated fashion.   Do you think it is not having an effect?           What is your Japa vrata?   For how long?    Tell the whole world!     Be a pioneer!

We are always grateful for your association and determination under such difficult circumstances.