Hare Krsna dear Maharaja!
Please accept my respectful obeisances,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
Thanks for your answer.
Nowadays i neglected reading Caitanya Caritamrta, and my knowledge is imperfect. Usually i read Krishna book, Gita and Bhagavatam. From your mercy i understand more and more about siksa relation day by day.
I right now read Bhakti Vikash Swami's answer about Bhaktivinod Thakura and Jagannath das Babaji contact. Thanks for asked Him and thanks Namacarya Prabu's enquiry!
I very respect Bhakti Vikash Maharaja. The most fantastic harinam in my life was with Him in 1995, when He visited Hungary. Even the old women and men danced in the street!!! It was very inspiring. I feel sorry He banned from few Iskcon temples. This is sad.
HpS -- AGTSP! As far as I know the real information is that in the Alachua Farm and the Gainseville Preacher Center he is not allowed to give classes. That is all and they are under the same administration. He has strong opinions, there can be differences of opinions. We all get on strange mental trips, but because we are sincere we correct the mistakes and don't do it again. So we don't worry too much about whether Maharaja is wrong or the Temple as long as both are trying to clarify the situation, understand what has to be changed and have good relations. When we are trying to avoid cooperation to correct the situation that is the grand illusion that we are Krsna conscious, no?
.....It was nice to meet Vaisesika Prabhu, i'm sure He was born to be a sankirtana devotee, He is very powerful. I like His positive attitude. We didn't speak to Him in person just participated on His seminar and classes. His program was very crowded from morning to late evening. I felt myself like a brahmacarini, spent all day in the temple :)
Unfortunately Jaya Bhadra Mataji couldn't come but i hope once i will meet Her in person. From Radhadesh Yadurani Mataji came and i talked to Her about lot of things. She is a very sweet devotee, we are like-minded. So many bad things happened with Her and She has deep understanding about spiritual life. She joined in 1980, Her first Spiritual master was Bhagavan Prabhu, second Satsvarupa Goswami, and now She follows Vaisesika Prabhu, who is Her siksa guru. We had a talk about this topic also and it was helpful to me.
Maharaja, i understand siksa is more important than diksa and i respectful accept Your opinion but since i don't have diksa guru You are my only shelter.
HpS - ASA - Jaya... Who was your Diksa guru??? He left his post??? In that case there can be anothe ceremony to fix the relation. It is very individual and real thing is to get this clear understanding of things. Then we can be an unstoppeable team, spreading Lord Caitanya's message.
After Srila Prabhupada You are the most important person to me in Iskcon.
I feel You care about me but i would like to know i'm your diciple (siksa). You said i can meditate on You when i chant gayatri mantra so i do it, but You didn't say i can chant your pranam mantra, therefore i stopped doing it. It's strange when i offer bhoga i don't offer through You, and i don't call You Guru Maharaja. I miss these things but i don't want to speculate. Or just have to do it? I don't know...
I'm sure Krisna tests my persistence but please tell what shall i do in this situation!
You said few letter before sometimes better to stay in our yatra and if there are problems we try to solve those and make better the community.
So we are still here in Hungary and try to do something. I'm not qualified but nowadays more and more mataji come and ask for help and guidance from me and i feel it a privilige and maybe Krsna has a plan with us here...it will turn out.
I try to take shelter on the Holy Name and serve the devotees. I hope once i can realise i'm everybodies servant.
Thanks for your association and today inspiring DTC about Jayananda Prabhu.
Happy Radhastami!
Your servant,
Sri Radhe devi dasi
HpS - ASA --- Jaya... What is your situation. From whom you received Mantra? Who was your Diksa guru.... You may have told us be we are dull headed and it is full of windy spaces!!