Dear Hanumat Presaka Swami

PAMHO

AGTSP

Thanks for your letter . Really I am very clear about my diksa relationship ! It is over! I understand your position , but in my position the reality is other one nothing pleasant , instead a way to hell . I am very sorry to tell you , my reality !!! When I begins this step , is because I don't comeback !!! I don't know how i can handle this but the Diksa in cuestion tell me :" that if i renounce to Him i renounce to my first and second iniciation" For me , renounce to kind of diksa relationship is the best . This problem is not trivial ! Ojos vemos corazones no sabemos!!! And if the heart is not clean the diksa or siksa don't have sense!!!. If you can not accept me , my way is are ritvik. With humbly, what do you think? You know in all my spiritual life i was behind to lotus feet of Sri Sri Radha Krsna with sincerity . I came to USA because I wanted a pure relationship with devotees,and i ask to sri giriraja in vrindavan for that , and the people that know me , know that i have a god actitud in all my relationship. The reason to break my diksa relationship is a big problem, no of my part !!!   But of course I am a woman!!!!    So, I hope you can understand me , anyway if You maintain your posturer for your relationship with your God Brother and for respects to him , i wil understand it !!!   I will understand, Krsna want other things    Note: I came to Hare Krsna Iskcon Center for a first book that I read " La ciencia de la autorrealizacion" When I finish to read it ,my life take sense and I star to try to find the temple. So Prabhupada make me a devotee !!! Srila Prabhupada Ke Jay!!!! And you help me to chant Hare Krsna , to read the books , and outlet from my concepts. Thank you very much for all your help !!!!! Instead a sopoust authority help me to fall down!!!! Hare Krsna!!!! I am not witch and you are not donkey !!!!    With love!!!!   Or bhakti rasa!!!!    Y.e.s Mahabhava Cintamani dd

HpS - ASA -  Jaya, Srila Prabhupada!    Thank you for your nice letter.  One thing for sure, I know the experience you have in trying to express youself in English.  For me many things are not clear in this investigation, establishing relationships. These Blog letters are very good for general presentation. Like in classes, symposium, and then a little more intimate, like four or five people coming up and talking after the class, but then for very specific things that takes a few minutes with just the individual devotees to discuss details that could not be discussed in the public class, or smaller group...  Is natural.  So, if you like, we will be in Texas from 10th-21st and if it is convenient it would be nice for us to talk with you and Sriman Aravinda Das a little bit about this situation.

In general, one comment from Sridhara Swami, Prabhupada's Godbrother, really helped us a lot. He said that the essence of Guru is "trnad api sunicena..". It is not that we are trying to get as few Gurus as possible, but rather as many as possible.  Ultimately, to go to Goloka, we need to see that everyone is my Guru, master, but in different positions.  So, that develops as we go from 1st to 2nd to 3rd to...    initiation.         Then it is happy life.  I have no enemies.  I a here to serve everyone.  Somebody may be crazy and take me as their enemy but that is temporary insanity in one of my masters.   How can I help them.  Jaya.   So, if that is good we can maybe discuss some details in Houston with the Patni-guru. 

  {:o)-      AGTSP..   Now we go to Richmond, Virginia...