Dear Hamunatpresaka Swami,
Please accept my respectful obeisances,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
Nice to hear your pulse is stronger.
Thanks for Kapi Dhvaja and the regular DTCs.
I was happy when i read in one of Your last Kapi Dhvajas You will work less but i think You can't.
Your basic nature is to help the devotees and serve Them therefore i think You can't stop.
You don't know who i'm but You help me a lot although i'm not in Your zone You always support the fallens, like me.
I pray for You with Srila Prabhupada's prayer what He gave to the devotees when He was sick.
My dear Lord Krishna, if You desire, please cure Hanumatpresaka Swami! And i hope Krisna will merciful with us and You will stay here until 2024 or more and we can learn from You lot of things. But if Krisna needs Your association He will take You back home and then i will be very lonely and unhappy :(
Maharaj, I'm too materialist and not easy to me to understand our relationship. I got so many things from You. It's a bit mystical but i always know when You answer me because at that time i become more conscious and powerful. And with Your answers the understanding comes too. I always have to meditate on Your letters for few days and those will be more clear day by day. I never felt this before therefore i'm sure You are not an average devotee and not mad at all.
But in spite of it i feel myself a bit "stranger".
I feel You care about me but You are a bit distant with me.
The Guru is non different from Krisna. Maybe this is Krisna's test or just my mind and the time will solve everything. And yes, You don't know me and i'm too problematic...
It's difficult to me understanding siksa connection.
Gour Govinda Maharaja said: The diksa guru fixes our legs in the land of Vrindavan but we should to learn move and the siksa guru teaches us how to move.
But how does this relationship work? It works by following? So can i be someones siksa disciples if He doesn't know anything about me or there is need a personal and official contact?
Please help me to understand it!
Thank you for your guidance and everything else.
Take care!
Your servant,
Sri Radhe dd
Ps. Please dear Piggy and Monkey look after Hanumatpresaka Swami! He has to take rest more so please ask Him for going to bed earlier!!! Thank you!
HpS - ASA --- AgtSP Paoho. Ha! Ha! Ha! Monkey and Piggy are sleeping but we are up. It is 10.27PM, yet we had a good nap in the afternoon in part adjusting to the change in Prasadam as we move from one place to another, but... we don't get agitated. We let the insanity of our world just glide over us. Othewise, yes, it does shake our heart.
UNDERSTANDING SIKSA: How many intimate disciples did Lord Caitanya have (Hint: Less than 10).