<kbd><tt>Dear Gurumaharaja,</tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>Please accept my humble obeisances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada!</tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>In regard to your inquiries regarding how ashram, family life and job is working out, i can tell you that things here are improving. Things just fell in our laps, and we both are adjusting to this, but we had an argument the other day where we found comfort in that we have eternal duties, and our situation is something to learn to deal with in that sense. Love can grow, just as with arranged marriages by family, so why not in our case? Funny how it's hard to deeply understand it's a blessing, a sure sign of neophyticity. We have fun times, fortunately, and i noted your suggestion in another blog entry to work on that. Ashrama arrangement in general, i appreciate it, but feel very stupid for missing out on the opportunity to be a brahmacari longer, and read and meditate more, not just for decreasing bodily demands, but transcendental knowledge and purification in general. I just try to work on it now, next to my other duties. </tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>I was in a project until last week, and i noted things worked out very good, in the sense that there is much focus and executing only the essentials, due to time constraints and the heaviness of the lower modes at the workplace. Illustrious Radhika Raman did a lecture God & Google in which he stressed that every extra effort we do for Krsna gets responsed with His help in our life, and so i started getting up even earlier to chant, and realised His mercy! Very nice!! Now i am inbetween jobs again, and it is again much harder to find focus. So i'd like to go back to a new project asap. Moving into my friends house next week, by divine arrangement, see what that chapter brings!</tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>That friend is in Gour Govinda Swami's realm, being disciple of Caitanya Candra prabhu, and we had the good fortune to be in class with Madhavananda and now read his latest book, When good fortune arises. It is such nectar!, but at the same time remarkable that to follow GGS' suggestions to work on the internal is so darn hard because inside looks so dense that it's hard to know where to start. I start to understand i need help!!! When i read about your thoughts and preparations to go and help in Goloka, i wish i was around to be in your presence and maybe, first handedly, get a glimpse and hear what's living inside you. I would then inquire on how to facilitate this going deeper inside. "So are you Maya Das or are you Krishna Das?" I am Maya Das, maharaja. </tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>Signed, a foolishly proud, passionate and densely covered, hardly aspiring servant, </tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>Richard</tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>HpS - Jaya! AgtSP.... Paoho... You seem to be something like on the level of Socrates. Maybe you were Socrates, but this time not quite so ugly. Most people don't even realize that they are dead, crazy, "prakrteh kriyamanani gunaih ....", 90% or maybe even more of their life is just making a little bit sophisticated perception of their environment and then reacting, two legged dogs.</tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>So, to us it seems that you are in a good position and if you realize that it is a big, dense mind and intellect then that means you have a broad perception of it and you have some idea of what gentle, flexible, is. That comes from associating with Srila A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami P'pada.</tt></kbd>
<kbd><tt>O.K. Start working with enthusiamd. Take advantage of Krsna's incarnation in the Bhakti vedanta Purports and reflect on surveying the internal world and what are the work priorities and get to work. "nehabikramo nasya si..." like 2.40. There is no loss in this work. Whatever cleaning and flexibilizizing you make will be yours FOREVER!</tt></kbd>