Hare Krsna Gurumaharaj, pamho agtSP.
I won't ask you about your health as i know already its condition, and you would prefer to spend your time talking about Krsna,.. but i dare to express you my concern about your healt, you are sacred for us. <img alt="enlightened" height="20" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/lightbulb.gif" title="enlightened" width="20" />
Please forgive me for being to emotional,.. i wonder what should be my duty as your disciple in this moment?, i know that following the principles, vows is the way to honor and respect you, and i've been doing it, but the push for something else is there... i can't waste more time.. and your health condition is a shaking urge for us. please Sir, help us to serve properly.
Please excuse all my foolishness and my rebelious nature, stubborn mind that pulls away from you. ..<img alt="" height="18" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/31.gif" title="" width="18" /> i'm here Sir, ..
your disciple
Madhumanjari dasi
HpS - ASA -- AgtSP You have great potential as a writer. Of course we have been suggesting that for so long. Of course it has to take it's own natural course. Many great writers don't write anything because they are great writers and they realize that all they have to say at this point is redundant and trite (Ha! Ha! English Dictionary).
Yes, we try to act properly with rebellious, stubborn, foolish, arrogant, mean disciples. It is a lot of work and we have to understand how much we can extend ourselves to help, but a super basic principle for us is that we think of how much pain we are causing for Srila Prabhupada by being rebellious, stubborn, foolish, arrogant, mean disciples, and how he has and is still being kind to us and then we think, "Oh, my God! How can I not try to extend myself to help others who are not half as rebellious, stubborn, foolish, arrogant and mean as we are!".
So please become serious about understanding your mission in Krsna consciousness and then find place in that mission for others to follow you. Don't let their rebellious, stubborn, foolish, arrogant and mean foibles deter you from your mission, but extend your mercy to help them stay in your aura.
Jaya! AGTSP