All glories to Srila Prabhupada and U!!!!!
please accept my humble obeisances at your feet
Hare Krsna dear Gurudeva!!!!
hope you are ok...
thanks a lot for all your support...your words are like signs telling me DO NOT GIVE UP!!!!
Here is my report as every janmastami...
hope you are ok...
thanks a lot for all your support...your words are like signs telling me DO NOT GIVE UP!!!!
Here is my report as every janmastami...
* SADHANA... despite all the mind problems i still can have a regular sadhana... get up early, 16 rounds, 4 principles...done!.... worship deities, reading SB and BG... this experience of having a sadhana at home is kind of difficult sometimes but it helps a lot to be serious in the process... sometimes i joined Japa Joe... it is so wonderful to chant rounds with devotees... it makes our day worthy.... sometimes it is very difficult for us to get up early specially when we are sick but we try to do our best... we go to temple once a week to see deities, to associate with devotees,...
* SERVICE... Bhakti sastri courses are going very well... we have 2 groups...very enthusiastic groups.. one group is just one devotee (Ignacio from Valparaiso) and with him we are also working in a project to develop a program (bhakta program).
by the mercy of Krsna and Candramukhi dd we have service once a week in Wilson temple as pujari... we also are trying to organize our time so we can do some service in Chosica too...
with NIMSAR we are heping with the accounts, we also received some advice from Abhiram Prabhu about Cultural Center he gave us a sample for "Estatutos"... i also worked on Vision and mission of NIMSAR with Ignacio fromValparaiso... we will probably present them in next meeting...
* ASHRAMA... we are wearing saffrom clothes since 2004... i have to tell U that i have been talking with matajis often, not only for service but also because some of them are very close friends... my life is not a brahmacari life for different reasons ... so i am wearing devotional clothes only for service... now that i live at home i have more responsabilities, i am looking for a job, i am studying, and so on... i have been thinking for some time that it is time for me not to wear saffrom anymore... i really think i am not a good example for other brahmacaris... maybe my case is different but not all people think that way... and i dont feel comfortable... i think i wont be comfortable wearing white either but as one devotee told me... there are rules we have to follow in order to be a good example... PLEASE LET US KNOW WHAT DO YOU THINK?... for us it is very important what u think.... and as i told u before whatever u decide for us we are gonna take it as a instruction....and we will follow it...
* HEALTH.... doctors are in shock every time i go to see them cause they say i am much better than other patients.... i feel ok despite all the pills i have to take (28 pills)... i continue doing yoga and trying to eat properly.... depression is still there but now we can control it a little bit...
we are taking everything as it should be, at least we try to do it that way.. as u say "Today is a good day to die" so we have to be prepared...
maybe u got bored with this looooooooong letter.... so sorry... we know that being in front of the computer is not good for you....
i am really grateful for all your help...
last KD we read what u wrote and we realized that we are not ready for nothing... we are wasting our time with stupid things....
please forgive us for not being good disciples..
always at your feet
Patraka das
"A job worth doing is worth doing well" - Uncle Gismo
HpS - ASA --- AGTSP paoho Forgive the delay in answer.... What about reducing conversations with ladies and continuing as a Brahmacari to the END? Public contact... short term contact for Sankirtan with sisters is fine...
... there is nothing as 'depressing' as dying. even with 108 pills, unless they are japa beads!! The soul rises up and the body falls below!