AGTSP, PAMHO,

Dear Gurudeva, thanks to you and Sri Nitay Gaura, I spent the month of Purosottama reminiscing about the pastimes of Krishna and his devotees.

that I have strived to seriously follow the sadhana bhakti, the more difficulties have appeared.

People I barely know turn against me with a lot of psychological and moral violence, and many conveniences I used to have are gone.

When I didn't know much, everything seemed easier, the circumstances weren't so complicated, and when I started to consider that it was due to my karma or offenses, everything became very complicated.

Currently, there aren't many devotees to associate with, and it's not easy to make friends. I have had difficulties being more meticulous with what I eat, with the sadhana times, and that has left me in constant material deprivation.

I see devotees who were more serious before they took initiation, some seemed to start losing enthusiasm even by the second initiation, however, I sincerely wish them all much success in their lives.

Even so, I continue chanting the rounds and studying what is possible for me, sharing where there is no censorship of the Krishna's consciousness.

Thank you for being a constant inspiration and hope in my life. Your simple crew member AniruddhakrsnaDas

HpS - AgtSP. How can Krsna not be very aware of us if we are sacrificing 2-hours daily to think of this Name by Japa and follow the four principles strictly.

If things are getting to tough, maybe Nimai is telling us He needs us in a different universe where He is executing His pastimes?

Sometimes we take initiation, second initiation, and then we can't keep the higher standard and become offensive. Best to do the best we can and try to come to the higher, goswami, standard without artificial desires or pushing.

we have to wake up!

first goswami and then pure devotee ie awake.

"Hare Krsna! So nice you are back".

Always, glad to hear from you.