Hare Krsna dear Maharaj,

All Glories to Srila Prabhupada,

Please accept my humble obeisances.

Dear Guruji,

I miss you a lot. I haven't written in too long, that is to my detriment only, for your association is something that cannot be matched in this material world. I always loved to talk to you and write to you, only my fallen self has restricted me from doing so.

Happy Vyasapuja dear Guruji. I wish and I wish a hundred times that your health stays intact and that you are always able to serve Srila Prabhupada and change the lives of the devotees. I know for a fact that you have helped me so much. Especially in the earlier years when I was more in touch with you. Now I am negligent. I wish to write to you today and from hereon more often. I want to learn more from you Guruji, I want to take your advice and suggestions more seriously. And I want to improve my Sadhana (it has been quite downhill and like a rollercoaster).

Earlier this year, I spontaneously booked tickets to India to attend the Maha Kumbh Mela. People were saying that this type of star alignment doesn't happen very often, once in 150 years or so. I really wanted to go, and so I made it, I took the dip, then I spent most of the time in Punjab with my father's family, and by Krsna's mercy, the last leg of my trip I got to spend in Vrindavan, my safe space. I felt spiritually recharged after going there, but again fell back into my usual state of confusion and lack of motivation.

I will refrain from saying too much about myself, the irony is that it's your Vyasapuja. I just wanted to sort of update you on my current status I suppose. I can say more, but I also know I don't want to make this letter too long for you have so many more important tasks at hand.

I regularly check the whatsapp group, I really love reading your writing. Your faith in Krishna is so inspiring, no wonder my father was so attracted to you. And I am so lucky to have been his daughter, he had so much faith in you. I wish I can imbibe some of that faith dear Guruji.

I know time is running out, and everything is temporary. I know I have to fix myself up. You are the only Guru that I see fit in my eyes. For myself at least. I have always meditated on you as my spiritual guide. Your knowledge is so pure and advanced, it is not so black and white. You are so intelligent that you can give answers accordingly to the capacity of the person.

I wish I can be of some service to you Guruji, please tell me how I can improve my sadhana and become more inspired to chant. How can I find the love in this? What is wrong with me if I am not attracted to this enough? If I have questions and doubts on what is going on with the GBC and ISKCON as a whole and all the politics that goes on, both locally and globally. It affects me, especially when it happens locally.

I just want to learn how to become a better person, and a better more faithful servant Guru and Gauranga. Please please Guruji, please help me understand.

I really hope I can see you. I really wish you visit Australia, but if it isn't in your plans, I would really like to endeavour to meet you on your side of the World. I would really love to.

All glories to you Srila Gurudev, it is you who dispels the darkness in our eyes, and it is you who guides us towards a better life.

Please accept my dandavats (although I'm not sure what is the protocol on ladies doing dandavats - I don't understand why. I have seen pictures of ladies giving full dandavats in front of Srila Prabhupada, unless I am mistaken. But I'm not sure if it's frowned upon or if there's a reason behind on why it is not done). Either way, I would still like to offer full Dandavats to you dear Gurudev. I wish in the near future I am able to serve you, either physically, or by your instruction (but still physically would be a dream come true). I really hope that your Vyasapuja day is exquisite with the most excellent Prasadam and Grand Kirtan. I wish I could cook for you, all your favourite meals.

Jai Sri Radhe Shyam.

Please accept this not-so-humble offering Dear Guruji.

I always hope your health is in the best condition it can be, and it always remains so. I hope I see you soon.

Your fallen servant,

Lakshmi

HpS / ASA - Hare Krsna. AgtSP. This is Laksmi daughter of Raktaka Das????

You see that we are just as slow to answer your letters as you are to write them... but.... NoI 3. We keep trying. Srila Prabhupada keeps trying!

Because to that we win!!!!!

How is your family.

YOUR FAMILY. You have to save them.

Yuddhisthira felt that because of the rules of Dharma, his father dead, he must accept his uncle as father, he had to attend the game of dice. he kept gambling away everything. everything. in the end all his wealth, all his servants, all his cattle, all his lands, brothers, wives were lost.

but draupadi, raised both her hands, let go of her saree, life, and raised both hands in the air and said,

... Hey Govinda...!

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Krsna saved her. her family.

Karna said, 'the pandavas were drowning in the ocean of defeat and draupadi has been the raft that saved them.'

Oh. Govinda!